rock on.

cui.
been using that word alot lately.
cant wait for PW to be over
den i can stop using that word.

the past three days have been spent designing OP slides for the entire group
it turned out pretty well and im quite satisfied with my work
the speaking part's a problem though
presenting stuff which is obvious and on the screen is such a drag
talking to people who look bored? screwed up.

sometimes i have this problem with discipline
its most significant when i wake up
i tink i have the 'depressed when i wake up' syndrome
whenever i wake up i just dun feel like doing anyth except gg back to sleep
wtf.
like today actually wanna go swim
den i slept
and woke up
and so today i din swim
must get rid of this

mean while im in a sticky situation
the ISL vietnam which i signed up for is actually 900 bucks
i tot it was 200
now i have to pay another 700
and i haven't told my parents
shit.

i need to get clothes

ok so i got my results and they arent too good
especially math
math can go screw itself man seriously
its like u practise non stop for the bloody subject and in the end all you get is a U
wow.
if u studied econs u would know that the returns to scale SUCKS.
mayb im just not cut out for math?
somehow i see all the other ppl in NJ they are like wtf gay with math
and im just not
math sucks lah how can u guys cope with it
formulaes which dont make sense and have no relevancy to life
logic which is not well explained and merely required to be memorised..
it takes MUGginess to study math, not passion/interest!
no wonder sciences pawns u, math.

meanwhile today was a crazy day
i gymmed thrice
and dota-ed in between
i had a chinese lesson spent listening to muse
(knights of cydonia is gay)
now im more than a little tired
well cant stop now tml im swimming and den helping out with tracka nd field for open day.
anyw i tink my body is so accustomed to the torture it gets in the day that
if i dun work myself out till im shag, i cant sleep (proven during the exam period)
i also get pimple outbreaks if i stop exercising
wtf withdrawal symptoms ar.

oh chinese A levels are in two weeks
need to start reading the textbook liao.
sian
ok i gtg now

tired.

If theres one thing i learnt from a relationship,
its not to be sucked into dependancy
because people cannot be depended on
even ur loved ones.
and it will KILL you.

well exams are over. and im seeing quite alot of love interests going around,
some successful and others somewhat pathetic.
3 years ago i might have been envious or even jealous
now i only feel a vague sense of pity.
a guess its all tat experience gg into my head.
while i see all my peers talking about the opposite sex and how they wanna 'stead'
i can onli be amused at how uninterested i am
(mayb its cos of nj no chiobu)
but i just don't seem to have any targets

tml is the big day
haha.
hope i dun retain lah.
nor do i wish to drop any subjects.
if i dun drop any subjects
im gg to be so happy i'll go on a dota streak
with my class guys
haha

meanwhile i've been gg crazy with training
but the training has nothing to do with throwing
lol. take for example today
i swam 40 laps (i stopped cos of motion sickness sun too bright i tink)
den went to school
gymmed awhile
ran 2.4 (10:35 wtf sucks cock)
gymmed awhile more
played basketball till cui
i need to properly gym

AND my phone is smashed
i smashed it
seriously the inside is all cracked up
how?
a weight fell on it while i was doing squats
wanna know the details come ask me
its freaking retarded
must have been the most retarded thing tats happened to me
now cant sms or do any shit
argh.
wtf.
stupid