i realised that i blog pretty little

its like i havent even touched the 100 post mark and my blog's nearly 3 years old.

hahaha. ok well school kick started better than i anticipated.

i managed to delay slaughter, and do enough hw in between to scrape through lessons

im also perhaps getting not so slacky about math anymore

the onli subject i've let hang loose is chem

sorry yip but too bad chem is content based

i'll cram it over the weekend.



a few days ago lennon told me that 'we have no lives' in nj

true enough on a normal training day i stay in school from dusk to dawn

more than 12 freaking hours lah.

i find that all those nice clothes i have chucked in my wardrobe, simply remain chucked there except for sundays(church) and outing days.

true enough i dun hang out and go play around like i did in secondary school anymore

i dun stick around orchard road/cityhall/queensway/friend's houses till 2am anymore

it seems my life revolves around studying, training, studying and training.



but think about it ppl.

while i do not advice ppl to go home and mug right after school(that is hardcore)

is going out with friends and doing the same stuff really considered as having a life?

does walking around window shopping, hitting the lanshop, eating at posh places, going to the arcade, watching every movie that hits the big screens, qualify as an exciting take to life?

does dispensing your parents hard earned money so you can enjoy for the moment, from which you gain nothing except perhaps better friendship, qualify as a LIFE?

ultimately, we all do the same thing everytime we go out

we hit town, we go to sentosa, we spend and eat and shop and we stay out late, accumulating oil on our skin, going home feeling sticky and tired.

dun you get sick of it?

i mean, i have nothing against go out-ers(lol), i was once a go out-er.

but life is all about balance.

going out to see my friends and catch up and all is sth i would definitely do.

and then comes the complex problem of ppl with too many friends, which i do not wish to discuss.

but going out for the sake of going out, becos its having a life?

thats dumb.

its what bengs do u know

they go out

they dun study

they dun train

look at them. either skinny or fat. its a joke.



i believe that having a life, is a personally defined.

based entirely on individual happiness

perhaps some ppl feel happy with wasting their lives away enjoying for the moment

they feel happy spending the day and copious amounts of money without gaining anyth, without improving their personal skills.

perhaps some ppl feel that being surrounded with friends is all that matters, and ensuring that these friendship remain strong, is what defines their life.

and then they turn around and say that some ppl have no lives.

well hey, i thought i would never say this, but what if some ppl feel that getting a proper education is actually something which defines their happiness?
what if some ppl feel that excelling physically, the intensity and aftermath of sports and exercise, is what makes them feel good?

haha what if some ppl actually are planning our their future happiness and LIFE?

ones which can be sustained and which will ultimately pawn the ones which are for the moment?

what if some ppl actually feel that music defines their life?



well. the thing about having a girlfriend/boyfriend is a trump card that doesnt apply here.

if u get what i mean.



so

as far as im concerned

going out is something i can dispense with currently(JC)

thrs stuff more important

studies, training, jamming and the occasional going out?

i think thats enough LIFE for me to handle at the moment actually

eating into my sleep.