doodleoutmythoughts

2010-01-28T07:29:00.002+08:00

days ago i was at JE swimming pool after a day of cycling. Apparently some organisation got it into its mind to cordon off about 1/8 of the pool for some aerobics stint whereby aunties gather to well, do aerobics in the water. with floats. like huh. fact that the whole operation is lame not withstanding, it is also inconsiderate to other swimmers la. so we paid the full fee to have 1/8 the pool cordoned off? they were lucky i wasnt there to swim seriously, but the whole scam got me pissed off enough anyways. and aerobics in the water(note its not even under water)? try swimming. try walking. try aerobics on fucking land. it'll help u lose alot more weight than spilling ur pockets paying to cordon off the pool and causing displeasure and discomfort to others(they were playing stupid music as well). oh yeah incidentally, same goes for ppl who go to the olympic(50m) pool and swim across lanes, get whacked by my kick/stroke, and look at me with that kind of face. hello. wanna swim across lanes? cant take 50m? go to the childrens pool. and you do NOT have the right of way. give way rule in the pool: freestylers arent supposed to look infront, and most of them swim faster than froggers anyway,

so froggers, give way.

2010-01-23T23:48:00.003+08:00

i have no idea why im back here again.

i guess im just trying to make sure my english isnt all blown away by now.

Life, after As, has been fun. (i think my vocab is gone though)

Prom was super. Performing Pokemon(the song) to all those born in '91, or around there, was a blast. It feels good when u make nice music. But making nice music doesnt come easy. It takes hardwork, grit and commitment unless you're a musical genius like John Mayer or Pino and can whip up a progression or jazz up a piece whenever, wherever, and because you want to. ME, i'd hit a wrong note half a bar into my supposed 'improv'. lol. but hey man im learning.

Chronologically, i popped by msia within the next week, and when i got back i think i went straight into looking for a job. i found one and it was great but i dunwannatalkaboutitit'lltaketoolong. Lots of other random events occurred as well but i think i can leave them out of this summary of my life (after As).

Musically, i FINALLY learnt the fingertech, which is the using of the index finger and middle finger, for bass. woohoo. yeah didnt you know? i was thumbing the damn strings all along, even for hysteria during cie lavie. must have been why we screwed up big. harhar. but all's well now. I also picked up a few fill-ins for drums from zestin, and some from weishuen(i think). i cant say i furthered my guitar prowess much, but i did refamiliarize myself with the piano. i think i need a jamming studio at home man. or at least a piano. i wanna piano. im gonna get a grand when i get rich. lolol. oh yeah i also learnt how to fundamentally slap the bass. fundamentally. not literally.

and yeah i've still been doing all that crazy exercise shit. running and swimming and gymming plus playing badminton now. with the 05 guys lol.

im also going for the MUSE big night out thingey. (118 bucks ouch)

Also, most recently, which is a few hours ago, FTW auditioned for talentquest '10, organised by NUS. Our 5 colors (mcfly) was pretty solid but like i said hardwork is what we need.

ok im bored already.

2009-06-05T23:02:00.003+08:00

ah. i havent been here for ages:/

the past 2-3 weeks since school ended(in a way) have just been a load of studying and swimming. in fact im just taking a breather from doing chem to do this. THe exams are approaching and the pressure's really on. but sometimes i just dun feel like doing work. times like these. liberation from the need to travel to school everyday at 630am has been good for health and studies i think. productivity has increased by 200% and i get a hell lot more time to swim and on top of that squeeze in some time to play around haha.

sometime last week i went to watch chunyin perform in a harmoc concert. VJC. the mugging life really sucks. feels like a self imposed home arrest/torture. i need to get out to play more i guess. but i feel guilty about doing that everytime. what the hell is this. sometimes i worry that this guilt will not subside even when exams are over.

i've been doing the chem challenging drill qns and math revision package all this time. damn if the CTs come out some screwed up qns im gonna flip.

anw the stupid song on my blog is getting irritating cos the imeem link mysteriously changed to some stupid sample. zzz.

2009-04-20T20:36:00.003+08:00

and my throwing days are finally over
hahaha.
oh well i could consider my two years training as a waste of time
seeing that i did not achieve anyth
(other than the sd meet which was a joke?)
seeing that i still failed to qualify after two years?

but all things considered i guess i was never cut out for throwing
it was a new experience altogether
and i feel i've improved loads from the first time i threw
and im much stronger and fitter than before
theres really no point feeling like an underachiever
i'll just take these two years as a strengthening course

now im ready to work on my bass and guitar full time
as well as my studies
of course
im gonna try sth new now
just havent figured out what it is

meanwhile NJ track and field guys is no longer a 3 point team!
woah. i think its actually on its way to greatness
though we are suffering a deficit in the throws team
in both size and numbers. -.-
hwachong just pwns us flat
how.
mayb the 6 year ip program can actually save us
project: fishing for fatties

on a side note i've done my napfa and it was satisfactory
29/30.

alright back to poisson and all that fuck.

2009-03-21T22:11:00.002+08:00

so much for holidays.
its ending in about a day
SUCK LAR.

school starts too early i insist
its insane
even if i were the first person to step through the gates of NJ,
i have less than an hour to run
how freaking early is that?!
and to be serious the system by which we(JC ppl) are educated is inefficient
it does not work.
it kills the minds of students
it kills creativity
it makes us so tired out and drained
it generates so much anxiety and stress that if the school won something for student welfare it would be the perfect irony.
thank god its only two(or three) years.
when people say that studying life is much better than working life, im quite sure they leave JC life out of consideration.
plus i think i have some low blood pressure shit or something.
i cant sit still without falling asleep
and school. it just asks you to sit still for HOURS listening to blabber.
how ridiculous does it get
and they force us through such rigid time tables
who cares if our state of welfare allows us to concentrate right?
just teach and get paid.

alright so my argument is flawed and full of logical fallacies
but what the heck i need a longer break
one week seems like pathetic shit
to think that im facing napfa, nationals, and school altogether when it reopens

i need a chronosphere that lasts a month.

oh and today was the SD meet
which was lame as usual
there was this umpire who checked for DQ, measured, and recorded all at the same time
and there was once the shot put bounced and landed in another hole
and he took that hole for recording.
salute.

well today i didnt do any homework.
i guess i owned myself
but i dun feel like doing any homework today
today is homework free day (self declared)
homework can go screw itself with a cactus.
or a mace
or a bomb which explodes

damn. this must be the worst school start im having
i feel like crap.

2009-03-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

woah holidays.
feels like the part of the run where u finish the slope and come to level ground
plus u're allowed to slow down.
woah shiok.
but then again a quick scan ahead reveals more upward slopes and a cliff.
sigh.

for me the holidays began badly
SAAA opens yesterday and i screwed up real bad
i threw like wat 2m lesser than on training days?
wat the shit
the feeling's like crap
u go onto the pit
and all the other 16 throwers, the umpires, and the waiting sprinters are staring at ya
and i feel my strength drain in the instant
and i just couldnt throw
and its not my first time competing either
why;s this happening?
mayb its the shoes
mayb its the no breakfast?
ah. i swear it wont happen again.

right after the lousy competition i went for bandage 2 with paul wensong and daniel.
well for what it lacked in entertainment it certainly made up in comedy.
a lot of retarded things happened
and after watching i suddenly felt like i had alot of experience performing
but really i've onli performed that little
and i feel like performing alot more
music makes my life.

and well a few minutes ago i was doing halogenoalkanes
the holidays are just going to be filled with revision and homework
but still im grateful for the break
school life KILLS.

2009-02-15T19:56:00.002+08:00

well its been about a week since i last had time to blog
and stuff happened.

haha well first off last saturday weishuen and i decided to try out for math tuition
since his math was not to good and mine was entirely screwed up.
happens that the teacher was a PRC(wtf) and when he opened his mouth to say the first sentence weishuen was alr writing 'i want out' on my worksheet.
i didnt understand anyth in that tuition and it vaguely reminded me of NJ's math tutorials:
just sit and let the teacher rattle on, do ur work, get out.
first thing i did when lesson ended was to quit.
lucky i didnt pay anyth.

the following sunday night i jammed at caleb's house with zestin, paul and wensong
in preparation for talentime and supposedly livenloaded which we did not go for in the end.
what can i say, those guys are just fun.
music is pure fun.'
after much random jamming we decided upon no such thing-john mayer

the following week was a sort of repeat of normal school days,
go to school late, study, train, go home sleep.
except that i had some jamming sessions slotted in between,
such as the day we messed up INE hub and got that guy pissed off.
but we had our first layer recording experience, and it was pretty screwed up.
but once again the jamming was fun

and well came friday the 13th.
the day started in the morning after a short run out of school with yanwen
well we sort of lagged too long after the run
and were going to be late for assembly
deciding to pon, we headed for the toilets near the squash courts to bathe
guess who we ran into? sham.
he told us to hurry
we hurried.
while bathing he sent that j3 female pe teacher in to catch us
wow. and we got marked late and had to stand and sweat at the side gate
friday the 13th proven true?

haha during talentime that night
at a mere 30 mins before i was due for performance,
my bass guitar's washer came loose and fell out
the input jack fell into the guitar
this means that i couldnt insert the cable into my bass
put it simply, my bass was screwed.
unlucky? haha.

feeling like a horror movie come alive,
i remembered that there was an extra bass in the shooting range as i was there with jitsheng just hours ago.
i borrowed a phone to call jit,
i couldnt get through.
unfortunate?

i called tingsoon next. he told me jit may be in the range shooting, where there was no reception.
in my performance outfit,
i ran all the way from LT 5 to the range
it was locked. i called jitsheng again.
his phone had died(no batt).

feeling like my day couldnt have gotten worse,
i ran back to LT 5
i had perspired like crap in my outfit
and desperately needed to cool down
meanwhile ashwyn and gang were trying to fix my bass

thank god ashwyn was rather pro and he fixed the washer and hooked out the input jack with hair pins and 5 cent coins.
pure genius.
and i had my bass back, though it was fragile now and i had to be extra careful with handling it.
i went on to perform for samson and delilah, and the acoolstics.
hahaha and amazingly it all went well
samson and delilah were runner ups,
the acoolstics were first.
im so getting a new bass

and friday the 13th was one scary day for me
but in the end it all turned out alright
thanks be to god
there is none like you.

i also got my ipod yesterday.
its orange in color but it looks brown
so its alright
im quite satisfied with it though it may have cost a bomb
waking up should be much easier now.

2009-01-27T19:55:00.002+08:00

wow 100th post.

yeah so much for niu year
it was over in a flash.
and it IS getting increasingly boring
i realised that i just go to my relatives house, sit down and stone while they blabber away in hokkien.
hardly see any cousins or what that are same aged, and even if they are, they're frequencies are way off.

yeah so im back in sg worrying about my homework status
argh.
when this A levels is over i'll be fucking happy.

2009-01-21T21:27:00.002+08:00

i realised that i blog pretty little

its like i havent even touched the 100 post mark and my blog's nearly 3 years old.

hahaha. ok well school kick started better than i anticipated.

i managed to delay slaughter, and do enough hw in between to scrape through lessons

im also perhaps getting not so slacky about math anymore

the onli subject i've let hang loose is chem

sorry yip but too bad chem is content based

i'll cram it over the weekend.

a few days ago lennon told me that 'we have no lives' in nj

true enough on a normal training day i stay in school from dusk to dawn

more than 12 freaking hours lah.

i find that all those nice clothes i have chucked in my wardrobe, simply remain chucked there except for sundays(church) and outing days.

true enough i dun hang out and go play around like i did in secondary school anymore

i dun stick around orchard road/cityhall/queensway/friend's houses till 2am anymore

it seems my life revolves around studying, training, studying and training.

but think about it ppl.

while i do not advice ppl to go home and mug right after school(that is hardcore)

is going out with friends and doing the same stuff really considered as having a life?

does walking around window shopping, hitting the lanshop, eating at posh places, going to the arcade, watching every movie that hits the big screens, qualify as an exciting take to life?

does dispensing your parents hard earned money so you can enjoy for the moment, from which you gain nothing except perhaps better friendship, qualify as a LIFE?

ultimately, we all do the same thing everytime we go out

we hit town, we go to sentosa, we spend and eat and shop and we stay out late, accumulating oil on our skin, going home feeling sticky and tired.

dun you get sick of it?

i mean, i have nothing against go out-ers(lol), i was once a go out-er.

but life is all about balance.

going out to see my friends and catch up and all is sth i would definitely do.

and then comes the complex problem of ppl with too many friends, which i do not wish to discuss.

but going out for the sake of going out, becos its having a life?

thats dumb.

its what bengs do u know

they go out

they dun study

they dun train

look at them. either skinny or fat. its a joke.

i believe that having a life, is a personally defined.

based entirely on individual happiness

perhaps some ppl feel happy with wasting their lives away enjoying for the moment

they feel happy spending the day and copious amounts of money without gaining anyth, without improving their personal skills.

perhaps some ppl feel that being surrounded with friends is all that matters, and ensuring that these friendship remain strong, is what defines their life.

and then they turn around and say that some ppl have no lives.

well hey, i thought i would never say this, but what if some ppl feel that getting a proper education is actually something which defines their happiness?
what if some ppl feel that excelling physically, the intensity and aftermath of sports and exercise, is what makes them feel good?

haha what if some ppl actually are planning our their future happiness and LIFE?

ones which can be sustained and which will ultimately pawn the ones which are for the moment?

what if some ppl actually feel that music defines their life?

well. the thing about having a girlfriend/boyfriend is a trump card that doesnt apply here.

if u get what i mean.

so

as far as im concerned

going out is something i can dispense with currently(JC)

thrs stuff more important

studies, training, jamming and the occasional going out?

i think thats enough LIFE for me to handle at the moment actually

eating into my sleep.

2009-01-09T20:54:00.002+08:00

school is coming in 2 days.
official feeling? stressed up beyond any recognition.
so far i've only managed to complete my GP homework.
my chem and physics have remained untouched
though i have been wanting to start on physics, i dun know what the hell to do
i think i will be screwed by teachers on the start on school
any attempts to do math have been foiled by the incredibly hard questions
its like trying to knock down the great wall of china
its possible, but u'd need to be superman
in which case im not.
math is a monster.
for the past week i've sat at my table scratching my head at math questions
so far i've done half of the first of four papers.

i've got ALL comers tomorrow
basically i'm going to get owned by the ppl thr who are bigger and older than me
but nevertheless, i will do my best
whether my best is enough, is another story.

and today i had lunch with 3:45
everyone seems pretty demoralised
but i do urge u guys to get back on track
we wanna leave a legacy
surely you dun wanna end up telling ur kids next time
'i had a band once... didnt work out so great.'

after lunch we hit the arcade
whr our good ol drummer tried his luck on drummania
i dun quite remember laughing so hard in a long time when i saw the STAGE FAIL
and he was playing BEGINNER
its pure irony.
but well im sure thrs reasons lol
and we played somemore games to do with music, and that was it
ithink we all had a taste of fun
we should do this more often
as 3:45

meanwhile my ankle is healing nicely
except that when i rotate it it goes crack crack CRACK
well.
i guess it needs some time
but im gg back to running
i dun have the luxury of time.

should i swim tml?

2009-01-01T19:16:00.003+08:00

a week before the new year i told myself
'i feel like staying at home for new year's eve and new year'
and on 30th December tuesday, i sprained my ankle super badly while jumping stupid hurdles.
nice one right.
so i lay at home waiting for my ankle to heal for the past two days
i din exercise
well today i did try to get out of the house to swim, onli to angered outbursts by my dad and mom, complaining that i cant even lie still for two days.
WHO CAN?!!
its outrageous.
i feel so sickly.
i need to get active.

and so passes my new year-.-
well i did play some games on the com, watch a hell lot of tv, read, do some gp, sleep and eat.
i feel du lan with myself for spraining my ankle.

meantime, i guess i really need to do something about my math
which is abysmal.
like. i cant even figure out how to switch on the GC now.
many thanks to god that 1+1=2 is a universally known fact.

i felt i've slept so much that im on OVERCHARGE.

oh yeah new years resolutions.
well i dun believe in making resolutions once a year
i make resolutions everyday
i resolve myself to be better than i was yesterday, everyday.

and what the hell.
go advertise ur bloody shop somewhere else dude.
im not interested in bras.
dun u have sth better to do than to pollute my tagboard?
go home and wank asshole.
screw the bloody hell off.

2008-12-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

ok i lost the cable which connects my camera to my computer
so screw that for the moment haha.

alright thanks man weishuen although i know u onli appreciate the flaming LOL.
which is also not much wat.
meanwhile, christmas has totally pawned me.
i spent 12 hours and 30 mins of my friday in church decorating th place and rehearsing for a skit in which i was supposed to be a wise guy who gave a gift to jesus. dammit i can really use some pictures in here. and today i spent another 6 hours carrying out the stuff i had prepared 12.5 hours for. im tired and i havent exercised/trained for TWO DAYS. oh man. have to hit the track/pool/gym soon.

and to be absolutely random my hair is getting long and bushy again.
damn im considering if i should rebond
den i'll have nice smooth flowing hair
i dun even mind if its curly as long as its not bushy lor.
stupid hair.

my homework status is still F.U.B.A.R
but im pretty satisfied with my life other than that.

and oh well my computer curfew(which is freaking retarded) of 11pm is approaching
ok actually its in 3 mins.
-.-
so i guess i will go sleep/read/watch tv now.
u know i had hoped 'homework' would be one of the options
but.
y'know.
haha.

2008-12-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

there is so much to blog about and im just too lazy to blog it.
so in super brief,
last two weeks i've been overseas,
first week to vietnam and second week to thailand
vietnam was ISL, a cip trip i which 22 of us built a playground(literally just a ground), for some vietnam school.
it was quite fun leh. and tiring.
den thailand was a missionary trip by the church
it was not as fun but still quite okay.
i got quite some pictures which i may/maynot post in time.

main thing is.
i lost two weeks of training -.-
and suddenly need to worry about the shitload of homework
and my brain feels very empty now
i tink i may have forgotten how to write!
lol.

2008-11-21T19:20:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a2yVTR5CquE
alright.
originally i was planning to put this video on my blog
den.
i realised i didnt know how.
lol.

ok so i decided to link it.
its a cover of ITS MY LIFE
by 3:45
thats my band lah (in case got ppl blur)

so check it out.
its not bad.
hahaa
but i look kinda retarded cos the amp was gg crazy at tat time
and if i moved too much there would be no sound
so must statue liddat
damn the amp.

2008-11-15T19:54:00.002+08:00

haha i wonder why some ppl are so smart.
we all know its customary that on someone's birthday the friends do sth crazy.. like taupok.
and its kinda fun.
but tie a girl to two chin up bar and wet her white shirt?
haha thats also okay lah i mean the guys also happy right.
though im sure my class wont do that..
its kind of sick.
and somemore in front of the canteen..
even our taupoks are carried out in discretion.
but if the teachers are so open to accept that
its fine.

putting the videos up in public.
thats just too pro alr lah.
shows how smart some ppl are.
lol never die before.
as though the sch not enough of such good reputation
need u ppl to help add on.
good job.

think of it this way.
if u had a girlfriend who was tied up to two chin up bars(like bdsm)
and dirtied with food and cake and drink
and her uniform becomes wet
are you gg to go: 'cool, let me get some cake too.'?
seriously wont u just whack all the farking bastards till their arses dropped off?
unless of course.
u enjoy that position.

if u dunt know wat im talking about u need to read some newspapers
if not u'll be failing GP.

so heres to the smart ppl.
we're all laughing at you.

2008-11-13T19:06:00.002+08:00

and weishuen just reminded me today is 3:45's birthday
haha. 13th november at 3:45
after Bio paper -.-

alright so happy birthday to us
1 year old LOL.
well heres a little history to commemorate this day
on the day we joined forces, we were an inexperienced bunch
i for one have never been to any course, guitar or piano.
i had been playing the guitar for 2 years as a hobby
and i have never touched the bass in my life
sze kiat's onli playing for 1.5 years but he had courses
weishuen had courses for 2 years.
and kahhan and kahlok? HAHA. totally nothing.
they probably couldnt tell A from G or wat the hell a chord means.
and i tink i can rightfully say that we screwed our graduation night performance
but it was an experience. and through our failures we grow
trust me when i say a band learns more from a setback than a success.
during our time in NJ we first tried out for talenttime
a major mistake. most of us were demoralized after the performance.
we had a month's break.
and then, determined to revive ourselves, we went all out to train for RN08
we had much help from minh, and at this point i have to give him due credit.
he is one hell of a guitarist.
after toiling for 6 months, where we had difficulties, both with the music and each other,
we even had a trial run at ngee ann poly, where we rocked for some project
and then...
we whacked RN08.
and it was the first success in our career
lol kahlok was hugging everyone backstage
gayboy.
and after tat we took another break
for the promos.
after promos we had a brief stint with One HOt minute
which didnt work out too well due to our over confidence
and disastrous song choices.
i cant say the pa did a splendid job either
but fault mainly lies with us.
and now we have ridded ourselves of the muse infection (it will be back)
and we have recruited daniel lee as a keyboardist
though he may or may not stay due to academic reasons.
next year will be a better year, with better sound and better dynamics.
i believe we are much better now
better than 1 year ago.
watch out for us RN09
kahlok, kahhan, weishuen, szekiat, daniel. me.
3:45.

2008-11-08T21:09:00.002+08:00

hey hang on.
how did u guys get to my blog?
i nvr advertise leh
issit tingsoon tat bastard?

lol. anyw liddat means i have to use less vulgarities plus cannot flame some ppl liao.
ah yeah. i tink PW screws.
why they cannot moderate on the day the groups are doing their actual OP
idiots.
if i tio... i tink i will poN!
say i overslept LOL.

well. today i went to msia
to a plantation my dad owns
and i spent an hour uprooting ferns and chopping trees
it was fun but stifling hot.
i was wearing long sleeved shirt and jeans to prevent the mosquitoes
who bit me anyw
den after awhile we stopped and went for lunch and came back to sg
den i went for the first run i had in a long time
with yanwen.
lols. he today dunno for wat reason chiong like siao
tinking of girl sia.
so now my legs feel abit cui.

holidays feel abit boring leh
i need sth to do.

2008-11-06T21:01:00.002+08:00

while i was swimming today i suddenly felt very motion sickly.
the water waves were basically stationary, such that whenever i submerged i would oscillate left and right.
initially i though someone just jumped into the pool, and it would be over soon
hence i continued swimming
but when the stationary waves sustained, i had to stop
looking around, i realised the problem
on my left and right were two WHALES swimming, around the same velocity as me
i was doing the froggy style(breast stroke) while they were free styling away, their log-like arms pounding the water like freaks.
of course they werent whales they were just some ginormous people.
bewildered by the disturbance in the water these two people could cause, i stopped and let them pound ahead of me about half a lap before i continued swimming.
lol seriously when their arms slammed into the pool water it generated tidal waves.
incredible.

2008-11-05T23:41:00.003+08:00

wow i just saw the email from KAT
telling NJ057, NJ079 and NJ080 to have to go for external moderation and filming of their OP.
omgwtf sorry to the three groups mentioned above but i feel so damn lucky now.
walau if i had to go for another OP, i will seriously cui.
seriously man it will totally suck
i'll probably run for 5 hours non stop and faint on the road
so i get hospitalized and don't have to go for another OP(i mean, wanna die also die my favourite way)
imagine. another OP.
its totally unfathomable
what the hell.

well. liberation came upon me on tuesday, 4th november, at approximately 3pm
we handed in our GPF, and someone attempted a disppearing act before signing out.
thats damn pro lah. we almost couldnt go home cos of that.
thanks.
well once all the stupid things were done (we had to paginate over 100 pages)
i went high.
me an yanwen
we went to the recycle bin outside
got out all our PW stuff (ok all HIS cos i din bring any of mine)
and threw them into the bin with the strength which we threw the discus
we stopped onli when the VP came walking up the stairs lol.
once it was all in,
i slammed the lid.
it was certainly a form of elation i had not felt in a looong time.

And today was the first time in a long time since i entered NJ that i went out doing nothing constructive till 11.
though i was tired and troubled by certain things, it was fun
i mean, hang out? when you're an NJ student?
its a rarity man.
i did feel like i lost the ability to socialise
but nvm i shall blame it on my tiredness and my current financial state
i want to get a job, but training gets in the way
anyone has any free lance job pls tell me
its quite screwed
i need to get alot of things
i need some clothes that actually fit
i need about 600 bucks for the ISL vietnam
wah. that really screws.
i dont want to pull out lah.
i've never been overseas with my frens in my entire life( apart from ophir)
and now heres a chance, and i have to pay for it myself.
not fair lah.

2008-11-02T20:33:00.003+08:00

Oh YEAH.
and i totally forgot to blog about the track and field expedition to mediacorp on friday
lol basically we went to support Mr irwan who participated in "dont forget the lyrics"
at first we were like sitting in some place where the camera wont capture us
i was like super relieved.
den
when it was mr irwan's turn
that mc/director (but is neither) guy told us to sit where the camera will zoom in on our faces.
i was totally WTF. (with the WTF hand sign)
seriously im gonna leave out the time and date which this episode will be streamed.
damn paiseh lah and he made us do retarded stuff while irwan was singing
and i reached home at 2am. and woke up at 2pm den next day. so i missed ISL meeting lol.

well the main thing was that our tchr walked away with NO MONEY.
AND WE HAD TO DO retarded STUFF ON NATIONAL TV.
argh. wtf. and it was only one word wrong
but its not his fot lah i suppose
'dont forget the lyrics' is damn hard to play.
and in my life i will never go on a bloody game show
totally no face sia.
gurmit singh is getting old, on the other hand.

Op will be over in two days
two days
when it is over its gg to be like heaven
im gg to celebrate like i scored into harvard
no more stupid project meetings, script writing, knn powerpoint slide designing, and bloody blackfaced teammate(s)
and no more stress. damned stressed over presentation.
cb cant even train properly.
pw should got suck its own cock den cut it off.

2008-11-01T21:23:00.002+08:00

the end of chinese happened two days ago, on thursday.
i thought it was the most taxing moments of my life to sit through that incredibly boring paper.
more than once had i wanted to rip that paper apart and strut out of the exam hall.
but when it was over, pure ecstacy.
imagine. no more chinese for the rest of my fucking life.

and 3:45 had its first jam in a long time since YEC.
we had a new keyboardist with us this time, daniel.
he wasnt bad lah
but overall our band could use some improving
sigh.
i need a new bass guitar
i tink white is sex(y).
and i need sth larger
from watching videos of our performances, im outsizing my current one.
the current financial crisis is not helping though.

oh. and sth weird happened.
this guy approached me and invited me for casting at shinemodels.
like. a model.
he says im really cut out for it
but im not really confident of that
and im not really interested either
i think i'll pass up this chance
one person's opinion might not be reliable
mayb if three other people approach me i'll go for it
haha its really easy money though
i could use the money.

well gotta run now
training seems stagnant nowadays.

2008-10-26T21:15:00.002+08:00

cui.
been using that word alot lately.
cant wait for PW to be over
den i can stop using that word.

the past three days have been spent designing OP slides for the entire group
it turned out pretty well and im quite satisfied with my work
the speaking part's a problem though
presenting stuff which is obvious and on the screen is such a drag
talking to people who look bored? screwed up.

sometimes i have this problem with discipline
its most significant when i wake up
i tink i have the 'depressed when i wake up' syndrome
whenever i wake up i just dun feel like doing anyth except gg back to sleep
wtf.
like today actually wanna go swim
den i slept
and woke up
and so today i din swim
must get rid of this

mean while im in a sticky situation
the ISL vietnam which i signed up for is actually 900 bucks
i tot it was 200
now i have to pay another 700
and i haven't told my parents
shit.

i need to get clothes

2008-10-16T22:05:00.002+08:00

ok so i got my results and they arent too good
especially math
math can go screw itself man seriously
its like u practise non stop for the bloody subject and in the end all you get is a U
wow.
if u studied econs u would know that the returns to scale SUCKS.
mayb im just not cut out for math?
somehow i see all the other ppl in NJ they are like wtf gay with math
and im just not
math sucks lah how can u guys cope with it
formulaes which dont make sense and have no relevancy to life
logic which is not well explained and merely required to be memorised..
it takes MUGginess to study math, not passion/interest!
no wonder sciences pawns u, math.

meanwhile today was a crazy day
i gymmed thrice
and dota-ed in between
i had a chinese lesson spent listening to muse
(knights of cydonia is gay)
now im more than a little tired
well cant stop now tml im swimming and den helping out with tracka nd field for open day.
anyw i tink my body is so accustomed to the torture it gets in the day that
if i dun work myself out till im shag, i cant sleep (proven during the exam period)
i also get pimple outbreaks if i stop exercising
wtf withdrawal symptoms ar.

oh chinese A levels are in two weeks
need to start reading the textbook liao.
sian
ok i gtg now

tired.

2008-10-14T20:23:00.002+08:00

If theres one thing i learnt from a relationship,
its not to be sucked into dependancy
because people cannot be depended on
even ur loved ones.
and it will KILL you.

well exams are over. and im seeing quite alot of love interests going around,
some successful and others somewhat pathetic.
3 years ago i might have been envious or even jealous
now i only feel a vague sense of pity.
a guess its all tat experience gg into my head.
while i see all my peers talking about the opposite sex and how they wanna 'stead'
i can onli be amused at how uninterested i am
(mayb its cos of nj no chiobu)
but i just don't seem to have any targets

tml is the big day
haha.
hope i dun retain lah.
nor do i wish to drop any subjects.
if i dun drop any subjects
im gg to be so happy i'll go on a dota streak
with my class guys
haha

meanwhile i've been gg crazy with training
but the training has nothing to do with throwing
lol. take for example today
i swam 40 laps (i stopped cos of motion sickness sun too bright i tink)
den went to school
gymmed awhile
ran 2.4 (10:35 wtf sucks cock)
gymmed awhile more
played basketball till cui
i need to properly gym

AND my phone is smashed
i smashed it
seriously the inside is all cracked up
how?
a weight fell on it while i was doing squats
wanna know the details come ask me
its freaking retarded
must have been the most retarded thing tats happened to me
now cant sms or do any shit
argh.
wtf.
stupid

2008-09-26T22:13:00.002+08:00

and it is over.
shiok lah den i ponned chem consolidation lecture with my class guys to play dota after that

halfway through some ppl called and said the teachers announced that if never turn up for lecture will get 5% deducted from promos score.
our class girls(who oso ponned0.0) and originally wanted to eat pizza hut,
hadnt even stepped foot into the restaurant before the call arrived
and they rushed back to nj in a cab(or two)
the guys?

haha we din give a shit.

and i thought only physics department resorted to such underhand methods.
and not even informing us first hand of such measures?
i tink its totally ridiculous lah
go f urself man seriously.
just becos we din go for one lousy useless lecture does not mean we deserve 5% t be stripped just liddat from our score lah
we studied damn hard
you tink ur pathetic lecture needs alot of preparation?
u jus regurgitate whats on the powerpoint slide
you know, they invent robotic speakers for that nowadays
and ploughing on through the speech when obviously most ppl are not even listening/interested?
isnt it better for the sake of everyone to just stop...
and like about 25% of the population ponned lah so what u d'you wanna do
and why impose upon us such strict, narrow ways of studying.
what if bloody online quizes don't really benefit us?
what if ppl jus anyhow do and hand in?
these ppl dun deserve to be stripped of 5%?
not everyone has to follow the ways which you tink are best
your ways are definitely not the best anyway.

whatever happened to independant learning?

threatening us with 5% deduction, and claiming that its for the good of our promos.
thats totally ironic.

at our level, forcing us to do stuff will just backfire.
you ppl lack understanding (and brains mayb).
some things just need to be revised. (in the other sense, not the 'mug' sense)
and the SPA? thats just tosh.
breaking it up into so many repeated experiments throughout the year? thats even more crap.
thinking about stupid errors which when solved will still be super inaccurate, doing retarded experiments...
its redundant and irrelevant to life
how many of us would end up as scientists anyway
students dont even need to 'critical think'
it has come to the state where they only need to memorise model answers
it is totally ridiculous.
are the true lab skills really taught?
somehow, i don't envision ASTAR physicists playing around with rusty pendulums and retort stands, recording timing and plotting graphs and manipulating equations all for the sake of finding a value which is already known and obvious, like, g=9.81 -.-

oh and reminding everyone that SPA is a national exam and no one is supposed to talk about it after school? thats a laugh
by t= 10mins after the first SPA session, our neighbour school would have known all about it, not to mention our students.
EVERYONE knows wat that spa topic is, how to do it, what are the errors.
its onli a pity for the ppl gg for the first session.
but hey. mayb their form tutor may have, you know, 'accidentally' leaked something.
and, somehow, its leaked in the form of ink onto paper, so everyone can bring home and study.
haha *sarcastic laugh*

DIsclaimer: the word 'you' may refer to many.

this is one reason why i like my blog secluded.
when i flame, i flame.
i dont do '_J sucks'
i dont do '**** you'
it lacks sincerity.

well that aside, lan was fun today
i got to own with a sandking coz despite having an opponent team consisting of three stunners and one axe, nobody bothered to stun me
so epi scored double-kill twice and many others and its really painful
dun underestimate
epicenter. its max damage is 1100, and its aoe
so if i have 5 heroes in my range its 5500 dmg output.
of cuz, u have to minus the 25% default magic resistance
but its still damn pain.
sandkind is one of my worst heroes anyway

since naix got bloody nerved i've become a noob
the match before wasnt so fun.. with luna
my com is screwed anyw so i cant practise dota.

well. operation 'get my life back' had a kick start today
tml training resumes. and will intensify in a few days
den training for performances.
hopefully we can go the senior's graduation night
it will be cool.

hah. now i have to go scavenge for a confiscated PSP
i wanna play a game
haha which reminds me of the SAW series.
which has a totally genious story plot(i swear its better than the dark knight)
but i wont suggest u watch it if you've just eaten anyth
er to put things into perspective; the cut and censored version of SAW (3 and 4) is rated R
is not for some sick sex violence lah its just pure gore.
but if u can get past the gore (which is really not much, but intense)
den u can appreciate the genious in planning and creating such a story
u gotta start from saw 1 and work through it chronologically though
the thing that gets me hooked is that i know there is always a twist
but no matter how hard i think wat it will be, i will always be surprised
well some ppl read wikipedia for the story( me too)
but that sucks lah.
so if you dare. go watch it. saw 5 is coming this october.
you wont believe how it ends

and the game i wanna play?
its star wars:force unleashed.
wow suddenly my life is whooshing back.
studying really kills.
the game is like freaking cool
you know in normal starwars games the most force powers u get is the common choke or push
in this game, ur force powers can pull down a spaceship
u can lift enemies into the air, zap them with lightning balls and slam them into other enemies
virtually all objects in the game are subject to your force.
the saber duels are damn cool
and the finishing moves are jus sweet
and the lightsaber..its backhand!
like, backhand.
normally ppl like luke skywalker hold it the DORK style(with the dork haircut)
the character you play fights with style. (he has not much hair)
well for ppl who are interested; in the game u play as the secret apprentice of darth vader. the game is also highly acclaimed as it is the missing chapter between episodes 3 and 4 of the star wars saga. as the apprentice, u go around assassinating remaining jedi: it is the beginning years of the empire. and the story unfolds. i wont talk so much as it'll jus spoil everyth. but the story of the game was crafted with guidance of George Lucas himself(creator of star wars), so its like playing a movie. if possible get the xbox360 or ps3/2 version, the graphics are gay. apart from the story mode, there are also historic missions, such as carbonite chamber( the legendary battle between luke and vader where vader goes "*breathes through mask*...i am... your father...*breathes through mask*" ) and order 66.

this game is really something else. its like god of war.

2008-09-14T21:09:00.002+08:00

there comes a time when u are halfway through ur studying.
you tink back and realise you've come a long way
that makes you happy.
and THEN
you tink forward and realise you've got an equally long way

that makes u fucking pissed off.

thats me right now. studying.
after promos i'm gg to make so much of my life come back i can give some to a loser and still have lots to spare.
The funny thing about school is that they still force people to go to school even though promos are like this near *holds up a finger and thumb*
and im sure they know that school is so draining nobody can study when they get home
e.g. monday ends at 430, so i reach home at 545 if i rush. i sleep awhile, and the most can onli study a few topics. sometimes teachers are so sadistic.

which is the reason why im ponning sch tml and tml tml.

this blogskin is getting boring. im gg to change after promos.
but for now i've got to run through some implicit differentiation and maclaurin series.

'screw it all' - Chasing Bars

2008-09-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

so another day passes.
today i finished the tutorials of intro to organic chem, isomers, and alkanes in one shot
someone pls tell me this pace is fast enough
cos its gg at the expense of my health.

tml i aim to finish partial frac, the two other math topics, plus alkenes.
this is wat happens when all that undone, unstudied work catches up on you
however tats not gg to stop me
im not gg to drop any subject to h1
its bloody humiliating.
and if i retain i can go and bloody cut my wrists
interestingly enough i realise i take quite an amount of pride in my intellect.
i dun like feeling stupid

there are days when i wonder what has happened to rv ncc
and today is one of them
sigh.
in the end our pride was merely a phase.

the studying lifestyle is really a health hazard
you just sit there and read
ur mucles shrink, ur stamina deteriorates, ur blood pumps slower..
i swear, after 3 hours of studying my blood pressure decreases
and i start feeling dizzy and seeing spots
i'd rather run the freakin marathon
im not built for this
i need activity.
whats my prefered daily routine?
10km in the morning + cardio
and full body gym work out in the afternoon
sports/games at night.
and some guitar?
rahhh.
or sports the whole day. i dun mind
just bring it on
anything is better than studying in a chair...
might as well go to prison
even prisoners get to work out..

2008-08-30T23:51:00.004+08:00

im feeling murderous.

yesterday was teachers day
and i din see much tchrs when i went back
seriously they shd set up booths in the canteen
since it is full of JC ppl anyw.
i went to nj in the morning and played basketball
halfway thru the celebs the whole track and field team jus pon
and i went playing basketball again.
den go Rv play soccer.
shag leh. but i like this kinda lifestyle.

i spent today doing nothing.
absolutely nothing
its like suddenly a day when i have nothing to do
it feels great lah.
i watched some tv, slept, played abit of psp, slept somemore, strummed the guitar..
i din even eat much
its like my body's operating on standby
totally no school, no work outs, no running, no hw.
shiok man.
too bad it cant last.

ah and i need someone to study w me everyday..
cos at home i'll probably not do anyth..
but mayb i shd learn self-discipline
if i can find no one luh.
to tink i used to be able to study damn well alone...
shit lah.

so now we start mugging for promos.

"i'm getting tired i need somewhere to begi-i-nn" - Keane

2008-08-27T22:26:00.002+08:00

eh fuck i still havent seen my own rock night video...
-.-

promos are coming.
@#$!@&^$*&!!

nothing to say lah the coming holidays will be like a boot camp.
walau eh i tink 4x RVNCC march camp oso nothing compared to promos boot camp..

meanwhile im beginning to feel taht singapore's education system, or rather, particular educational institutes, are really good at snuffing out any artistic and musical or physical inclinations that students may have and only bringing out the mugger spirit. ok lah lets be direct. NJ lor. so much work and stress... do hw until cannot play guitar cannot train cannot do watever u like... dulan lah. now i chionging vectors. jus now took a break to do a 'few' pushups. now i blogging. later i chionging vectors. or mayb i'll jus fuck the thing and go play guitar...

brite side is i finally settled WR draft 2, and i have a v clear idea of how to finish draft 3, so that by draft 4 it should be a perfect WR. the irony of the alevels module is that year 1 is more stress than year 2. shit dun we all wish we could go back to primary school..

"pain is temporary. Quitting Lasts forever" - Lance Armstrong

2008-08-20T21:26:00.002+08:00

haha saying that jc life is hectic is an understatement.
but i wont talk anyth about it since its just gg to be very repetitive and mixed with plenty o colorful language. (like fuck)

i went to watch KS's dance competition last friday(and im sure tats why he wan me to update)
ks u dance damn pro ok more pro than last time imba alr.
i cant say more cos i dunno much about dancing except that it looks nice.
everybody is becoming imba.
imba = imbalanced = gay.
its a dota term so if u dun understand go play dota.
and kenneth and szekiat were oso thr so i could play sze kiat's psp
(of cuz i stopped once the show started so i could watch..)

den today i went to eat seoul garden at taka for like the first time.
conclusion: i dun like beef. anymore.
it was a class outing lah to send a teacher off to study somewhere in US or UK cant rmb
and jerone went lah so its actually a cause to pop champagne
den er we wanted to buy sth out of the condom shop for our form teacher(yip)
and i tink we totally disgraced NJ loitering outside the shop deciding who to go in
which is perfectly alright: shows others that NJ ppl dun only mug. *raises eyebrows*
in the end we settled for seven-eleven which was coincidentally beside the condom shop

den after that we went to catch a totally awesome movie
it was so action packed, exciting, suspending, thrilling, and like all the words i can extract out of my vocab to say that its good lah.
to summarize: it was awesome...

so awesome that i almost fell asleep

"Mad about English"
seriously dun watch it unless u are a freako
or u jus wanna get in there and screw ur girlfriend/boyfriend cos nobody's gg to watch it anyw so the cinema's gg to be empty.
jus like wat a couple were doing in thr today till 11 of us waltzed right in.
lol the girl was still adjusting her inner clothes.

2008-08-02T00:52:00.000+08:00

did we own today?

DID WE?!

WE FUCKING DID!

2008-07-14T21:04:00.002+08:00

life's been a bore recently. nationals have paused my training and i only resumed running today onli to be plagued with a sitch all the way. ugh. last friday 345 performed at ngee ann poly. i felt that it was a good shot, despite opposing views from more pessimistic members. sometimes i wonder how far this band thing is going. sometimes i wonder even if all of us really strive for it, can we make it big? watever the case, we're going to be a band tiill the a levels at least, so make the best of it and run as far up as possible. we might even come up with some originals.

but those are big words considering the problems our band is having now, mostly the lack of communication and poor attitude. the passion to perform and play music just isnt strong enough. i foresee some difficulties with clashing egos and style in the future as well. sometimes ppl, we have to tink of the greater good and a greater cause, rather than for our self development. it is easier to make it big through the band than through yourself. think for the band and contribute to it, not to yourself. sometimes compromises must be made, sometimes egos be self-deflated. sometimes sacrifice is important, not holding on to too much. academics is understandable, as well as cca, but do be smart with time management. we are all in this together. we all want to enjoy ourselves through this process and make a name. admittedly it is not easy to bring 6 guys together and make them work like well oiled machines. sometimes tempers have to be controlled and thoughts spared for other people's convenience. sometimes tact must be employed and feelings considered for. sometimes one must look on the bright side. i wonder if anyone will chance across these words and actually take note, but whatever the case changes may be imminent.

that aside, i've been playing this interesting game of late. 'stubbs the zombie'. its a kinda comic relief game where you are the zombie and you go around killing people and eating their brains. guarantee plenty of bloodshed and ridiculous stuff(there was this part where you pee into the reservoir to contamintate the water so you can convert ppl into zombies) lol. well enough of games where you play as the person who saves the world, stubbs the zombie lets you destroy the world. its kinda cool.

my homework is lagging again and im probably gg to be screwed really bad with my physics and math teachers replaced. i did math va over the weekend at qinrui's house and decided that if i ever grow up to live in singapore im gg to live in bukit timah in one of the freaking big houses.

ah hell i go do physics liao.

2008-07-09T21:36:00.003+08:00

Why do i still dream about you every night?!
when will this end?!!!!!!

2008-07-02T20:35:00.002+08:00

well the marks aren't looking too nice.
sian i hope im not that guy who tio 10 for math.
10 is really really pathetic and i tink i'll just die
i dun get how some people can actually score like A or C or B for chem lah
its so damn hard lah. they onli give you enough time to answer half the paper
and throughout it you panic enough to read questions wrongly and throw away 5 whole marks jus like me. dumb. i think its the training lah. no time. if not i oso mug alr(really?)

shit man some ppl really know how to mug. HOW DO YOU DO IT?! mugging sucks. its no life. it sucks ur brains out. it makes u feel tired. it makes u wanna stick a knife in ur stomach and swirl. agh shit. too fast liao luh. i wish A level course was a little longer and more slack. nvm at least now i can train until die. stupid lah. getting all Us is not fun. im gg to own u all back end of year muggers!

meanwhile. sth screwed up happened to my PW luh. i send the email using an email acct we created for PW purposes to the organissation we interviewing. then the person send back leh. but i din know. WHY din i know? no its not cos i lazy to check email u noe. i check everyday. but hey. i check the freaking wrong email acct. i check my OWN email acct! wtf. so when i finally realised it TODAY, i chionged to check it. turns out we were supposed to go for interview three days AGO. i am owned lah. *ahbish*

talking abt die, today i heard tat some guy from anderson's sec sjab commited suicide cos his senior bully him. sorry u r dead lah. but u r one freaking retard. at least kill ur senior before u jump lah. and why'd u choose such a stupid reason to die? senior bully?! WTF. QUit the bloody cca lah. pls. tell ur parents tell ur frens tell ur teachers. there are one million other ways to solve this retarded problem and u choose to jump.

sorry i have to post this but suicide is the ultimate sign of weakness.

2008-06-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

wow exams are over. feels like the psle eh. minus the freaking gayness ofcourse.
sian lah i still got chinese tml. wtf chinese. still must read the stupid text book.
fail liao lah. sian. dota? shd i dota now? good question. or sleep? or read chinese text book? argh.
decision decision. stupid sia then tuesday i got chinese ORAL. o.o 0.0 O.O

if i buy a psp im certain i will fail a levels.

2008-06-24T22:56:00.002+08:00

At the announcement for all pens to be put down today,
i quickly grabbed my pencil(they didnt say pencil) and squibbled down the last 6 answers for the MCQ which i had utterly no time to complete. A quick flip through my structured essay questions revealed a large proportion of blanks or incoherent scribbles. Some distance away a could hear the rising voices of unrest, as one by one students gave up their scripts to the chem reps. i thought i caught a faint whisp of "gg lah..." somewhere behind me..

When all was done an explosion occurred in the hall, of complaints, cries, moans, and perhaps laughter. My friend was beside me. We looked at each other, i shook my head, and then he shook his.
"I didn't even touch the last question (20m)" he said.
"yeah wtf me neither i tink i have 30marks of blanks....the paper is upon 100 right?"me.
"no...eighty lah..."
"oh wtf..."

The rest of the time while i was collecting my bags was punctuated by friends and strangers alike exhanging comments about how wonderfully 'easy' the paper was. the looks on some of their faces were seriously comical. lol.
"wo3 ye4 zuo4 ye4 high" -ziquan, 08s05

Well for those who still dun quite grasp the atmosphere of NJC commontests, a new expression has emerged in view of the dark and looming examinations. USSR.
Ungraded - Subpass - Subpass - Retain :)

Hopefully the subsequent exams demonstrate the slightest bit more of mercy. But i aint pinning any hopes for tml, which is MAth. my math is gone case. seriously. right now, i dunno a shit about differentiation and graph techniques. im stuck at arithmetic progression cos im blogging. i've got plenty of equations to memorise and an exponentially diminishing brain space. H2 math sucks. its so hard.

on the bright side its ending soon.

2008-06-21T22:34:00.002+08:00

ok new blogskin the old wat was like wtf naruto.

im too tired to make anymore changes so its kinda liddat for now
i gottta go study CT starts in less than two days im so screwed
"how screwed are you?" -yanwen

QUITE?!
ok heres the sit-rep
with less than 48 hours to go
i have onli touched 3 topics for chem, 2 topics for physics.
econs i just started (y'know.. opportunity costs)
math...............(the abbreviation to describe this consists to two letters first one is 'G'. second letter is horribly similar)
so wth am i doing blogging rite..

after Ct can relax liao
back to whacking the gym
and performing with my red bass guitar again
oh. and dota
wahaha

i had a haircut today
i swear
gg for haircut for me is like gg to buy a shirt in thailand's night bazzar
tell them i want this..they say nonono not nice
then they cut their own
DEN not nice
but they say nice
so i go home cut myself
my hair i mean
not myself

disclaimer: the following contains certain amounts of lameness

lol recently there's been ppl proposing toasts to me on the tagboard
hang on while i get that champagne

cheers:)

2008-06-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

test

2008-06-13T19:50:00.002+08:00

im tired
im lonely
i need someone who can cause amnesia
there are things i wanna forget
i need someone i to talk to

'the only verdict is vengeance.
A Vendetta.' - V

2008-05-31T18:15:00.001+08:00

Whatever it takes - Lifehouse.

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time
I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
whatever it takes

2008-05-31T00:25:00.002+08:00

its finally over isnt it
sometimes, at times like this, you wish ur memories could just disappear
memories form ur heart
from memories u derive ur feelings
sometimes feelings hurt
sometimes i wish i had no heart
just like you.

i wish i could face this as matter of factly as you do
like its nothing
like its just another errand u have to get off your back
you know what
i'll pray for you tonight
i'll pray you find the light
i'll pray you find happiness in life
i'll pray you'll find another who suits you more.
i'll pray that the flame of your love will burn forever next time,
and not extinguish with apparent ease like it did
i pray u treat him better than u did me
i'll pray that our experience has done you good
that your memories(hopefully you have some) will be useful in the future

it hurts to remember so much bliss
it hurts that it will nvr happen again
it hurts even more that you remember nothing
that you share no memories
over time my heart has been cut up plenty of times
now it feels decimated.

so this it wat it feels like to be lost
the feeling of hopelessness
to drift, not knowing to which direction you are headed
to find a temporary absence to the meaning of life
feels like my motivation has been completely ripped out
after all, my onli source of that is gone
i want to tell myself to get my head screwed on right
to stop being messed up
but lets just take time to feel depressed shall we
why fight when hopefully it will go away by itself
from now im alone again

and i'll be spending my birthday alone this year

i wonder why people can be so cruel. you said i dunt trust you. when actually i did to the fullest. i trusted that you woul d love me and come back to me. i read somewhr that trust onli leads to pain, when it is betrayed. so far u lived a happy life. in a way u chose to abandon it. maybe when you find the feelings of betrayal and insecurity, you will understand. perhaps u need to suffer more.

2008-05-28T22:28:00.002+08:00

the hardest type of running is the type when u dunt know when you can stop
the most painful kind of waiting is when u dunt know when it'll end

holidays are damn shiok u noe
dun have to wake up at 445 in the morning
can actually play computer (omg)
can gym and run more
more time to study
wth
holidays are more constructive than school days

i just had chem spa today
its was okay
except that my answer was wrong
missed by 1
oh well
dun care lol

mean time the discus is pissing me off
i cant seem to get the technique right
and after each throwing session my shoulder joints feel like they were hit with slege hammer
sian lah
dunno how ppl can actually throw half a field
thats damn gay lah
technique technique
sigh

after tat went study

den went gym with mr vice capt of canoeing
wow
i hate public gyms
they stink
they're overcrowded
the ppl thr are all freaking body builders
and more time is spent waiting than working out
wtf
im so grateful for our school gym
NO ONE EVER GOES THERE
damn shiok
keep it up nj keep mugging
leave the gym all for us
wahahahaah

2008-05-26T21:33:00.002+08:00

live screws recently
com reformatted liao everyth gone
all my songs, my msn
worst is i cant get the msn back
wtf. the com wont install it
dunno wth the retarded com repair person did to me com la

everybody seems to be studying while i just cant get in the mood
argh.
ok i need to get a grip
im stronger than that

im stronger than you.

2008-05-13T21:16:00.001+08:00

you sicken me.

2008-05-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

blog blog
some how i always got nothing to blog about
dunno how u ppl can blog continuously everyday
like every single thing oso blog
i cant sia
i'd b damn bored

well recently i've been through rock night auditions
ok tat was ages ago
now we dun even know when rock night is
and i have this impending fear that our skills are at a standstill
not improving sia
how how

ok sian alr
i go do hw or sth
got ALOT.

i cant live without my guitar.

2008-04-24T20:58:00.007+08:00

well its been about a month since i last posted on this board.
nobody comes here anymore anyway,
which is to my advantage
since i'm not the kind who loves publicity or ppl knowing too much about me

jc life's been hectic and its not decelerating at any level.
academically i've been failing every math test
partially because math is a freaking gay shit subject at H2
and partly because i didnt study
im lagging behind by exactly 10 tutorials.
and a recent liking(NOT addiction) for the anime 'naruto' isnt doing much to help, t say the least.
fortunately/unfortunately, im not the worst.

CCA is really quite draining
though its considerably slacker and less possessive than other ccas like u know what..
but high intensity training really does test the will
and im probably not gg to win anyth
not that i mind
im a thrower.

well to add pressure to everyth
auditions for rock night is on this saturday
right after napfa test
i've gotta pull practices cos this time it isnt a piece of cake like last time
anw i promise 345 has improved
so dun label us before u've watched us on rock night
currently i dun have the slightest idea when rock night is though

life seems meaningless recently
especially after today..
well, till next time den
see ya ppl.

i wonder how long i'll have to wait:(
every second its gets more painful

2008-03-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

so many things to do
settle clt ting
get leave from school
catch up on studies
practise songs on guitar and bass
exercise
homework
VA physics and chem
rmb to eat meals
rmb to slp at least 7 hrs a day

though i think the last two abit hard
JC is life is like..
RUSH RUSH RUSH RUSH
CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG CHOING
MUG MUG MUG
slack?
i dun tink so

whole holidays i got cca training
and got t worry about whether nj will let me go clt course or not
my homework needs doing
im lagging behind in subjects
all my subjects..
sch reopen got varied assessment
den need start doing project liao
and the teachers gg to chiong syllabus
it all boils down to one thing

sianness

on a lighter note
rvncc annual ug camp just ended yesterday
i wasnt thr the whole time.
but it was fun meeting up with old platoonmates and catching up on things
the onli conclusion:
part D o7 is still a bunch of no good f***s
lol joking everyone
stay cool and keep strong out thr

2008-02-15T19:13:00.003+08:00

since last saturday i've been down with stomach flu
IT SUCKS.
PLS u friggin doctors invent a VACCINE for it
bloody hell
and im not even cured

the pain is so incapacitating
it makes u unable to walk, run, talk, eat, or do anyth at all
lying down hurts, sitting hurts, hell even using fists to whack ur stomach hurts.
its like sth burning away from the inside
and its lasts for so friggin LONG.

saturday the pain was still bearable
i gritted my teeth and went ard visiting teachers with my class 4A
whn i reached home i collapsed in bed
even drinking hot water couldnt help
i endured the night till sunday

i saw a doctor
the doctor fucking shit say is onli small disturbance to stomach
give me shit medicine
use to feed dog den got use
sunday night was hell

in fact from tat day onwards till yesterday every night was hell
the flu adapted a weird pattern, attacking onli from 530pm till the next morning..
monday i went sch tinking i mayb ok
halfway tio a splitting headache
had to take blue slip
almost died on the long ride home on 67..
its like. i couldnt even turn my eyeballs..(cool for ncc i guess but i friggin retired)
i saw the shit doctor again on wednesday i tink
he gave me some more shit medicine
which had shit effect.

cos that night the pain hurt so much i almost went to hospital
bt i stupidly endured and de nxt day den go hospital (diao..)
the specialist(gastroenterologist) guy took alook at my prescribed medicine and crossed out all of them as LOUSY MEDICINE

KNN SHIT DOCTOR!!(moral of the story here is dun trust stupid clinic doctors. they suck.)

yeah and the gastroenterologist gave me some medicine from germany
which costs 6 bucks per tablet like WTF
total one box was 84..
im like eating 12 bucks a day on this stupid flu
but it helped a little
see me? blogging here?
normally i wld be curling up in bed

but the bloody flu still wont cure
i still get pain from 530pm till the next day
how am i supposed to go school like this?
pls cure u bloody ass flu. if not i swear i'll cut out my stomach and find u and crush u.
like the bug u r.

anw to the onli person hu rly knew and cared:
sry for stupidly contracting this flu and making u worry
happy v day to you too (belated)
i'll make up for the lost time
if u have time tat is :)

2008-02-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

talentime is over..
dun tink we did very well..
ugh inexperience inexperience..
but nvm we'll treat it as a gaining experience to level up thingey
thanks alot to all those who came
we rly loved ur support
sorry for any disappointment we caused

chinese new year is coming
everybody act frenly and filial
get ANG POW!
lol

i got my bass guitar at last
its redwood and quite nice
tho its tgm
but its good for a noob like me
now i can finally practise and beat everybody
wahaha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mui7_xsGrKc
check this
this proves that bass is not a NOOB instrument
its damn cool okay
ok la so this is a eleven stringed bass but its damn cool

someone wants to b in my blog entry
so: [silly piggy]
yay

2008-01-23T20:07:00.001+08:00

JC life...
damn sian...
i cant seem to keep awake during lesssons
anybody out thr sells adrenaline and a coupla syringes and needles?

sometimes im so sleepy
i knock out and doze till the end of the lesson
cos the teachers dun seem to care
ugh
cant seem to complete homework either
so busy
talentime den hockey den watever
and im still in holiday mood la can
so groggy.

tml is the results day leh
everybody good luck okay
get 6 raw score
sure can one

3:45's gg to participate in NJC talentime
1 feb 1900hrs to 2200 hrs
at firs i tot its was a small deal
turned out
i was so wrong
all the ppl gg thr sibei pro one lar
shit
but its ok
we oso pro
lols
jkjk

2007-12-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

happy noo year to everyone
good luck to all rvians gg on to jc or poly
tink no one gg poly la
but poly aint bad
i tink poly is great for ppl hu have ambitions and targets alr
for blur ppl like me w/o a clue whr to head for in life
JC still the best lor
but must study like dog
if not cannot make it
but i hate studying like a dog
i onli started studying for os around prelims lar
previously i slacked all the way
so im stuck in a lousy situation
like who isnt right
everyone oso must study
and studying sucks

anyw i still dunno how to get to NJ
and NJ sounds like niao4 ji2

2007-12-25T22:40:00.000+08:00

merry christmas everybody
haha
sch gg to start liao
like so fast
i dun even noe wat to choose for subj combi
sian

im in NJ anyw
for those hu wna noe
so yo NJ ppl.
haha.

2007-12-23T19:40:00.000+08:00

shit man
SHIT.

yestd i typed a kinda long post abt china and all tat
and my father waltzed into the room i panicked and wham.
everything gone.
(my dad doesn't allow me to use the com)

so too bad
wont be posting tat anymore
not like anyone would wanna see anyway
china's full of cheena ppl
tats all

oh ya i jus got back from china like 3 days ago
in case u dunno

blog's been dead for as long as i can rmb
been in no mood to blog for a long long time
well holidays are ending
i would say these holidays were kinda fruitful
i earned like 400 bucks from my part time at hilton hotel
(there sibei hiong okae?)
and i slacked alot
damn shiok
no bloody homewurk

school's starting agn
sad and excited at the same time
glad the whole of 345 got into NJ
haha everyday after school jamming session
"who needs HW?!" -weishuen

com got prob recently
the video card fried itself
so no more games
dang

havent seen much ppl i know due to work and china trip
dying to go out
anybodie wna go play?
haha

btw
janson chan u better go for 55th clt course w me
if not ur part cs 2008 will be under the command some outsider or even worse: the girls
so if u have a shred of uh dignity.... u noe wat to do
clt course is so slack i could probably pass out of it w my hands tied behind my back, gagged and blindfolded.
and its super sian
but jus endure for a few days lor
i mean tats wat ncc is all abt right
enduring shit

happy christmas to all out there
hope u get ur presents haha

2007-11-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

yeah ks prom night
looks like everyone is worrying about tat huh
hope nobody ends up wearing the same stuff as anybody else

anyways
THREE FORTY FIVE is performing on grad night, 19th nov
dun miss us
cos u cant
wahahaha
unless u not gg prom la
which is like...
wth

ok ok
in exactly 13 hours time
o levels will be over
OVER
fucking over!!
oh man
oh yeah
cool
everybody celebrate alr

2007-10-26T23:48:00.001+08:00

kns.
no time no time
CLT course is so damn long la its like frm 26 nov to 11 dec
how to go chalet and all tat?!

anyw o levels is quite easy
but musn't be complacent i suppose
stil must study hard
sian
studying sucks man
i hate studying
it gives me eyebags
not tat tats v impt
but argh
dunno how to say
studying jus sucks
in fact im so tired from studying
i've jus discovered a big vacuum in my vocab
i keep saying studying sucks!
maan
and monday's english
oh well
must be too much studying's why im blogging senseless stuff
did i mention studying sucks?

2007-10-04T22:37:00.000+08:00

haha
school is ending real soon
but it isnt the end of the world lah
probably half of us are going to see each other next time in JC
there's still graduation day and the all awaited prom night
friends will still remain in contact if they are really friends.

despite all the crap tat might have happened to me
sec school life was quite fun
i didn't go to school today and there were quite many farewells for teachers
esp LLM.
i'd probably get a a1 for physics cos of her
she's a tigress, but she's a pro one.
dang. i hope she's coming for prom night
and mr chng was tearing while he bid us fare well yesterday
lols. think im worst student in 4a for both chng and LLM le.
but hey. im geting tat a1 man. for them.

and all the teachers tat taught us too.
they better come for prom night lor.
last time to see us leh
see us dressed up some more

so here's to it
2 more hours to the last day of school
last day of lessons
2 more hours
to the last day we'd be listening to our teachers
and wondering when lessons will end
the last day we'll be worrying about homework and socks and pants.
the last day we'll be sitting in class, walking around in school, eating at tat canteen.
the last day we'd ever have to struggle with learning sth from our teachers
the last day mrs look will ever be up there reprimanding us for some discipline thingey
last day of school.

but dun be sad lah ppl.
fires die, relationships end
time passes and everything moves along
but if old things do not die
new things cannot come
so face the future with courage
do not fret for the past
let it make its mark in our hearts
but leave no wounds upon it.

2007-09-22T15:27:00.000+08:00

prelims r over
not bad lah
i think i can safely state that physics owned us all

other than tat, the rest was quite easy
as usual, i failed my chinese
0 marks dis time
cool right.

well, nows the time everybody takes back results
den gather our fuel to pia the last lap
so
good luck and work hard everybody.

2007-08-27T19:08:00.000+08:00

alright first things first
happy birthday to jon loke and chunyin
ur bdae presents are gg to b super belated
me broke and no time lol.

prelims are finally here
everyone's mugging like shit
and im mugging like shit too
this time dun score well no motivation do o level sia
and i wanna pawn eveyone who used to beat me
(fat hope lol)

today was the first paper
a math paper 1
it was a piece of cake man
first time i acutally finished the damn thing
not a single BLANK!
to tink i use to not finish a single qn
i think chng will be astonished
lol.

i seem to have developed a liking for playing the piano
though im a grade zero
and it seems a bad time too
with all the exams coming in for the slaughter

alright gotta run ppl
got sum studying to do
and those ppl reading this blog,

u shd be studying

2007-07-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

you know
throughout the whole damn world
thr's so many damn occupations
guess which one's the damn worst?

.
.

STUDENT!

ugh.
im botak
again.
cos kana caught by sch

2007-07-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

well recently somebody's been sick cos of chocolate overdose
lol right.
get well soon lah

i watched harry potter today
hm dunno if its cos i too long nvr watch nice movie or wat
but despite wat my clazmates sae i tink its not a bad movie
i mean, the filming isnt tat bad
seeing that they finally got a competent director
harry's much better looking than before
the movie alot of chiobus
the magic part oso quite cool
although as is norm for all harry potter movies certain scenes were too abrupt
its like squeezing a 700 page plus book into a 2 hr 15 min movie?
it isnt easy
i think its because everyone has read the book that they're all becoming critics
you cant expect eveything from the book to appear inside the movie see
it'll be too long and dreary
the onli complaints i've got is that cho chang's not chio enough
and thr's not enough fighting
its not a bad movie
the better of the other four

on a heavier note.
homework is killing us
like seriously
so previously its like attempted murder
now its like attempted nuclear blasting
boom.

2007-07-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

BON JOVI - Thank You for Loving Me

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving meT
hank you for loving me,
For loving me

2007-07-07T12:16:00.001+08:00

hahah
change my blogskin?
no time, dunno how and dun care.
maybe after o levels i will.
and i'll jus let everyone find out my blog's still alive again by themselves lah huh
do i look like the attention seeking type? lol.

well. i'll be a physics pro by the end of this weekend
think im gg to plow through ten chapters of tys a day
so i dun have to stay back after one strenous day of lessons for Tea time( tys time)
sigh.
i'll nvr figure out why some ppl have got nth better to do once they escape IMH but to teach.

on a lighter note.
transformers rock k.
go watch it

i'll be off to do my tys now.
sch still sucks

2007-06-16T20:31:00.000+08:00

lol.
my username managed to change itself from 'limzhiler' to 'limzhiler@hotmail.com'
so its not a password problem.
ah.

well it feels rather good to blog after 1875.48.35hrs of inactivity.

i just came back from 4 days on a small little island off south thailand
its so small, its jus a dot on the world map(sounds familiar right)
it wasnt so fun considering i spent the second day curled up on bed wif food poisoning
i visited the toilet ten times
i swear

phukets kinda like malaysia
apart from the bloody transexuals
oh yeah ronald macdonalds does a sawadekarp pose
lol. wish i'd taken a pic

my dad jus saw me blogging
he tot i chatting on msn
he always tinks im chatting on msn
like pls
wats wrong wif msn
and i gotta go soon so yah
gg play basketball

2007-04-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

im actually thinking tat integration is quite easy.
and i done my math hw in sch today. IN SCH.
shit
am i becoming a nerd?
lols.
suppose it isn't any harm with the o lvls at such close proximity

tml's my chem make up
ragh
im gg to own this one.
time climb back up

cca. im gg to get pawned i tink
sian. nvm lah hope they cant find me
i'll hide
im adept at tat

ake's coming
the mini expedition
hope all from rv get past the eliminations
its gg to be fun
and i'll turn out like a lobster again
dang.
have to resort to sun block liao

2007-04-12T20:34:00.000+08:00

today was the last component of napfa test
2.4
i ran with a friggin stomach and still managed to clock 10.25
lost to sze kiat and ks by 2 sec. lost to kenneth by 3 sec
stupid stomach...

yah and its another year i got 29/30 for napfa
but my everything oso is average scrape A one.
i see de cy and weishuen and byhan and even thomas
put together they own me in every single area larh.
except sit and reach
SIT AND REACH. tmd.
yeah so i decided
im gg to train lol.
watch out ppl
here i cooomeee

and i realised
im getting into deep shit again
im about to get whacked by my ncc CO again
argh.
and LLM...
wants to see my parents
gawd.
give me a break
i beg of youu

and ppl arent nice
the world isnt nice
must learn to stand on your own
can trust and depend on other ppl
but when they fall
you must still stand
stupid ppl like to steal wallet one
why dunt u just return it huh
i swear if i encounter sumbodi liddat
i'll beat him till his intestines dangle from his mouth
stil rmb last yr got sumone from ncc took my wallet
from the friggin ncc room itself
from ncc leh
if i find you
i dunno wat i'll do to you lor
own platoon mate the things u can steal

2007-04-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

im not gg to make up for 20 hrs lor
ncc is not free labour cca okay.

2007-04-10T10:17:00.000+08:00

im at home posting while everyone's at school suffering
why?
cos i look like this:

O.o

ok so i dun haf a picture of myself
but yea
my eye
sore
ow.

im gg to miss cca today
wth
budden cca doesnt mean much anymore
cant wait to step down
let the new leaders take over
hope they dun screw up like we do
hope their power system is PROPERLY arranged

bright side?
i miss lessons
i dun get scolded by teachers hu monitor me so fking closely
every small little thing you ppl pick on me
if u picked any other normal guy
and observed him so closely
he wouldnt be much better off than me
stop stereotyping

sometimes i wished i werent in 4A
all attention turns to me
i dunno lah but my classmates dun function properly
LLM give corrections for 4 assignments on tuesday cca day next day got physics test and she wants them the next day and its 4 assignments de corrections dey can hand in i CANT
wth.
it isnt normal okayy
i want out.
when a normal person is put in a class of abnormals he becomes abnormal
damn it.
yah lah den i'll be the only one thr unable to do this do tat
and kana scolding lor
i wish sometimes the class will jus stand up the the tchrs unreasonable demands
and not hum until liddat
imagine this:
LLM give back physics practical tat corection done and marked jus for filing onli
someone lost the practical somewhr
...
the whole class goes crazy
they all become sherlock holmes
try to trace trace trace who pass who whr the practical landed
then im lika "eh. its jus a practical right?'
my dear physics rep: "ITS A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH!!"
and the whole class continues gg crazy.
yeah until jon tay found the practical in his bag. - . -
O.O
ok so i cant do tat particular expression jus yet
O.o
yeah. much better
me leh? i lost 3 of her assignments alr okay
and i havent bought my yellow file yet(which the entire class bought cos they saw tat 4B haf budden LLM never ask for)
come on.

2007-03-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

today was affirmation ceremony for part As
i tio the human flag pole lah right
but my body nt very like flag pole lah..
so yeah i had to stand with the flag motionless until the ceremony over
and u know wats the best part?
my nose itched all the way.
yeah. cool.
and den i marched out
first time i hold a god damn flag and march leh
lols.
jonny: "you know your arms never 90 degrees?"
me: "- . -"
me: "yea i know"
lols. i half march cannot ah. i like.

yeah then de ting ended lah
and GUYS GOT BACK GOLD
HOW THE BLOODY HELL DID WE DO TAT I DUNNO
i tink is icep lols.
budden if is icep then i had nth to contribute. sian.
but yay.
GOLD LEH.
fking gold!
but feels so weird
our standard.. dun feel like a gold unit
did we rly get our 93 points by pure competency and talent?
ahhh wadever.
GOLD

den after last parade
part Ds stayed back to drill
sth we had not done in a million years
and i was the commander
damn cool la
part D s finally drill after so long
our standard still zai zai okayy
dun play play.
v fun we shd do it more
but sum ppl dun wan ma

oh yeah
and jus rmbed
i haf anderson sec math exam paper to do
and hand in tml by 10 to chng
haha tml i got AKE
cant hand in ur bloody homework
siao lor wan me come back school on a precious saturday to gib u math exam paper
u go bang ur head on the wall first lah

yeah and im tired.
i wanna step down
but i miss cadet days when part D was still united as a platoon
i wanna step down

2007-03-15T12:13:00.000+08:00

sorry if previously i posted offensively
din mean it as u ppl's fot tat YQ was liddat
taken back wat i post
edit liao.

and >=(:
1. If you agree tat no corporal punishment is to be allowed. i rly hope you are not a ncc specialist. cos even our cadets dun agree.
2. Im not supposed to pump? im a staff sergeant helloooo.
3. I know i demoted but hey. i still got that cookie.
4. paiseh i had to single her out but its wat guys do to xtreme cases and ics and suay enough to have combine platoon lor.
5. i asked xinran can pump or not alr wat. she din stop me.
6. YQ din put in effort. come on. dun b naive. look properly.
7. she brought most of her suffering upon herself anyway.
8. if its an entire gurls platoon i swear i wld nt pump.
9. "its high time she woke up"
10. we r one ncc.

2007-03-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

broke camp a few days ago.
it bloody screwed up

so much to say
so much to blog.
lets take it away slowly.

DAY ONE -
went to sch wif the sian-will-school-jus-end? attitude
drifted through lessons in semi-conscious stupor
bloody lessons finally ended
chiong out of classrm.

everybody was busy packing goody bags
bloody hell everybody was wasting time packing goody bags whn the camp itself nt fully prepared
thanks to hu? him lor.
then nobody know wat they supposed to do lah
no proper breifing
no meeting
no discussion
i dunno waddefuck is happening
then
camp started.

He took away half a bloody hour
half a bloody hour
had to argue hard wif mr han to change and recombine activity
can jus b abit more flexible pls?
so i took part b and c for shorrrt pt
den combine with girls and took them for IFC
everything went well
den we had dinner. which went well as well.

bunk check and allocation came next.
i did the check wif my RSM.
it was well done
discipline ensured
importance of bunk cleanliness stressed
did alot of shouting
the parents having ptm above
fuck them lah why put ptm there huh
got so many other places.
cb. put thr of course kana noisy lah
ncc whr got no shout one
so i shouted and shouted
then our 'savior' poked his head out of above
and told me to stop shouting
knn.
die le i din know he was above
he heard my voice.

k fine den i chiong home and back agn
took my ake stuffs
i shdnt have gone ake.

came back
ptm over! finally
whacked the cadets for the firs time
whacked across level
finally the feeling of true ncc
then HE came up while jonny loke was whacking part c
relac lah jonny HE loves you he wun do anyth to you one
lucky is nt i whack one
HE will MURDER me. :)

bunk clean until sibei clean i have to sae
budden sir jun quan still found much reason to knock my ppl
i kinda felt the bunk clean and whacking was directed by me can
evn though HE dun let me do anyth
bloody hell him
i still plan lots of things and carry out lots of things behind his back ;)

lights out after tat.

he debriefed us guys
shoot me like shit
bloody hell
if i dun run your camp behing your bloody back you see wat happen lah
if i dun run ncc behind your bloody back
you see wat happen lah
whole day dig up past happenings
shoot me
you suppress the potential ppl from my platoon
and you keep trying to kill the ppl hu can save your ncc non stop
you do not realise importance of certain ppl (not saying myself)
fear of authority blinds you
fear of prosecution clouds your judgement
lack of competency makes you weak.
i hate you.
you have no respect from my men and i

after tat wini and yitong had a small discussion wif us guys
i alr abit worried
the way they talked
tat the next day would b alittle screwed up
and i was gg away on ake

but i had faith in everyone

DAY 2 -

PT in the morning
taken by shuen and i
hiong. but passable. not rly camp standard
den breakfast
told kahsing to get MOC up and running.
he did it.
kick started part C gsk lesson and test.

then ran off for AKE.
big mistake.

whn i came back
it was ard 7
firs thing i got was a serious "alot of things happened" from jonny
then i got an explanation of wat happened that day.
firstly the C&C and drill mutual tests were screwed up
fk man hu dun have the common sense that drill mutual test and lesson nid one day space?
cadets nid time to plan right?
they not super man and woman right. wake up can.
then FIELD COOKING.
screwed up nt enough solid fuel and food and matchsticks.
some cadets diarrhoea some nvr eat.
this is enough to earn us a changing parade from sir jun quan.
but he din do tat
he lost so much faith he din want to do tat
oni hold us in pumping position and scold oni
hus fot?
its my fot.
i went for ake

shd hve known
our dear OIC wasnt up to running a camp on his own
field cooking oso nvr plan properly
nvr tell the S4IC his responsibilities
heard u weren't even thr during the field cooking.
events suppose to run itself issit?
tmd.
dunnoe that drill mutual nid one day space b4 test
gave the permission to carry out test straight away
i always have to come back
get horrified at the mess you made
and clean up the shit for you
same thing happened during dec holidays profi tests
PROFI TEST MY ASS
the kinda shit standard
IFC teach wrong
rifile drill teach wrong
i had to retest for you bloody hell
if not your cadets fail spec course le
i dun even need to do this you see?
im stripped of my bloody rank
i try to help
i get kaopeied at.
but if i dun help
everything screws up
dammit. im sick of this.

okay fine.
so i did solo night for you ppl.
and it went well.
but interestingly i was disappointed
it wasnt scary
it wasnt anything
why?!
cos someone forgot all about whistles in the pack list
damned.
during solo night
i had to hide and stealth
why?!
cos they dun let me take
tmd.
im a bloody specialist
i have the right to take
you have no right to suppress my leadership and my capabilities
you ppl are all abt developing ppl
isnt this quite the opposite?
i dunno la anyway i had to take in secret
and solo night went well.

then we had a debreif by junquan
he hold us in pumping position
and told us wat he felt
he feels like i do
tat ncc
is dying
tat we
are losing faith
i fully understand
he said tat the firs day
we did well in changing the timetable to suit the lateness of activity start
hmm lets think abt hu did the changing huh
second day he says in the morning he still had hope
but as the day progress, screw ups start to pop out.
and as the day ended, he lost faith, the oni thing tat saved us was solo night.
hm. if i din leave for ake
alot of things would have been different.
damned.

i dunno lah
im confused.
i dunno wat to do
i dun wanna complain

why am i posting so much.

i grew so tired from my ake
i fell asleep

DAY 3 -
overslept.
walau. someone saw me sleeping lor hor
like dead pig somemore right
nvr wake me up one
PT again.
was okayy. more hiong. less hiong for part c
then i took a bath
i STINKS.
but i din stinks after my bath
of course.
change to no.4 and went to take C&C for charlie...1 or 2 arh?
forgot liao the one got YQ inside one jiu shi.
anyw
was so infuriated by YQ lah can
how can you throw me this kinda part A in disguise and not expect me to knock
give me for C&C
under my rule.
this kinda cadet will not lead a good life.
obviously treats ncc like shit
she would have kana tekan like hell long time ago
anw i tekan so little oni can
she defy my orders can
tis kind of attitude
i cant stand
blame it on she suay to come under me for C&C
bloody hell.
we are one ncc
we are not 2 separate ncc
i see no reason why our standards of discipline and punishment should differ.
i'll b watching her
next time she shows tis kinda shit
she gets it.

then after tat
sumone cancel pop lor
someone cancel promotion lor
why?
cos got parents come early lor
knn. who are parents? kings and queens arh
they come early too bad lah hu ask them stupid
why shd we change our plans to suit their blunder?
why the bloody fuck shd we fear them?
they nt happy
pls by all means remove your baby from my unit
i do not need a weakling
in my unit.
ncc is to toughen ppl up
get it?
we are army.
we are not sissy.
you send your kid inside here expecting tough treatment
and accept it.
stop complaining
stop bitching ard with letters
camp broke.
i felt NO sense of accomplishment
i felt DISAPPOINTMENT
i felt despair.

tis is nt my ncc anymore
the ncc i once knew no longer exists
even the fire in me is dying now

2007-03-03T12:58:00.000+08:00

'all for one and one for all'

if this is taken from us too
i quit ncc.
for ncc is no longer ncc
if this is taken from us

NOBODY CAN SAVE US

2007-02-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

my dream is dead
my hope is gone
what was once my pillar, my strength, my pride, my passion
gone. all gone.
i thought i could save us
i thought we could survive
i thought we were invincible we would never fall
i thought.... but i thought wrong
we are dying
who will save us now?

i once respected him
i once looked to him for direction
once feared him and honored his decisions
did things he ordered me with pride and eagerness
but he is killing us now
he has killed me alr
now he is killing my passion, my pride
he has disposed of me, so that i cannot save us
i am to look on helplessly as we are brought down from grace
i am losing hope in what i once thought would never fall, would be my strongest passion
who will give me back that hope now?
who will save us now?

what is becoming of us?
do you see?
many have seen before me the demise of us
should i have been like them?
for all that i have laboured for, all that i have worked for,
comes to nothing now.
i placed my life in this
my life is wasted then
isnt it?
some one.
save us.
pls.

so much pride during my sec 1 2 3 years
so much confidence in us
wore my green uniform with so much pride
believing it is the best
it still is the best
placed my trust in this solid pillar
leaned against it fully, faithfully, blindly
i never suspected it would fall
never in my 3 years
never.

"you must be very sensitive to authorities"
"you must know what to say to them"
"it is what _ has and what you lack. It is why this is happening to you."
"it is why you cannot lead."

when i heard this.
i knew we were halfway to our deaths alr
if leaders worked for authorities
would they be leaders? or followers?
if leaders had no personal belief and sense of what is truly right and wrong
if leaders do not make stands for their own ppl
are they leaders? or blind disciples?
if leaders attain position by KNOWING WHAT TO SAY TO AUTHORITIES
are they judged by their leadership and passion and attitude?
or simply ability to speak and deceive?
if leaders are not straight forward and frank but fear authority
can they lead effectively for the good of those they lead??
i heard this
i knew the end was near
the end of all that i believed in
for this is how our leaders are chosen?

our leaders have never been humble
to be frank
we are so proud of what we have
we cannot conceal that pride
it is the passion that brings the pride
and the pride is not with ourselves
but with what we belong to

you have taken my very superficious leadership post from me
but you will not take my leadership from me
you will not change me to according to you 'whims and fancies'
you will not get what you want
the fire still burns strongly in me
the fire from the once powerful us
but i cannot unleash it
i cannot use it
under you.
will someone else save us now?

save us.

2007-02-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

got caught for pants agn
wats their problem larh
underwear onli complian like sht
dun tell me u nvr see b4
knn
hu ask rv to have such disgusting shorts
tmd
dun wear low = suicide can?
fk up lah
sian
stupid rules
stupid uniform
cant wait to graduate

2007-02-21T19:25:00.001+08:00

school sucks.

2007-02-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

lol swtguysigh.
wats a SEL?
i dunno if any amount of persuasion can talk me into accepting no corporal punishment
ncc is kinda built on pumpings
lol. no pumping cannot survive.

just returned from msia
all i did thr was get moved around different houses with a car.
and eat until fat.
i did get alittle richer though
ang bao money. hahahah.
but other than tat
sibei sian lah.
so happy to be back man

come back sg then stress liao lah right
stupid sch
stupid homework
stupid physics

raaggh
at least got 1 more day.

2007-02-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

common tests r like over
yeah.
cool.
slack time ppl.
not tat i wasnt not slacking before.
hmm.

life kinda sucks right now
at home anyway
total domination and control by not the nicest parents on earth
total restriction and dictatorship in school by not the best principal
total boredom during not so interesting lessons.
damned.

on the bright side
new year's coming
new clothes
money(i totally lack out on this one)
and mayb freedom after one month

i still owe LLM her physics file and corrections
tmd. how to do lar
and physics used to be most slack last time
nows a total change of environment man
can u believe shes able to use 'parallax' error to critisize our table arrangement?
like a lol.

bios interesting enough though
i made onion and potato soup during bio prac lols
smells quite nice and i DUN miss chew hwee
however the entire class had to look in my direction and laugh
and so ms lai looked in my direction too.
she din laugh though. lols.
yah and im still awaiting punishment
waiting for a day when it won't rain after school so i can go water plants for ms lai
LOL.

the march camps to look forward too
hope it'll work out well.

oh yaarh.
speaking of ncc
wtf.
NO physical punishment lei.
TMD
firstly
pumping isnt corporal punishment its motivation and training.
nvr pump whr got discipline and fear
can reorganise all UG into 'drills club" alr
whr they teach drills with paper and pen and nice words.
then given our incredibly shortened cca time
HOW TO DO PT?!!
nabei.
nvr pump will become damn slack de lor
dun believe u see lah
budden im not gg to do away wif pumping tat easy
try to stop me if u can, ong
LOL.
im nt gg to let ncc become some guniang cca
blooody hell.
somemore still tell me not to scold cadets too harsh
"oh i beg your pardon, i was wondering if you could by anychance please stop rolling ur eyeballs, yeah?"
tmd.

Its not Over
- Chris Daughtry

2007-02-07T19:50:00.000+08:00

commontests are like, TOMORROW!??
im like, not studying yet?
my physics is like, @!#$#!?
and i like, FORGOT to bring my physics notes and textbook home?
im like, so dead.

lols.
ct is coming lah
but i go this strong urge to play the com whenever i see it
and i see it very often.
but i gotta switch to mug mode.
i swear kahsing mugs more than me
like wtf?!

and i'll drop physics if i dun do well quote LLM.
and i got a feeling her definition of 'do well' is 45 and above?
upon 50, tat is.

and i miss wearing my f-ing blue rings.
bloody @#$!@! took it awayy
i want it back.

2007-02-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

yah yah i'll stop being down and start feeling up k
anw i managed to rescue my sim card
so i got my phone back. yeah.

today's act nt bad lah
but slack..
no pt de
walao
csm...
can have pt or nt
can dun b so guailan or nt..
- . -
LOL

2007-02-01T19:59:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhahhhahahah
AHHAHAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

life is driving me mad.
y?
cos it sucks

well at least i had a haircut today

i need out of this prison

i need my handphone back

i need my freedom back

i need my fun back

i need my pride back

i need my passion back

i need someone back

i need my happiness back?

2007-01-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

am i arrogant?
i have always viewed arrogance as a weakness
i have pride
but i have always shunned from arrogance.

have i turned to the 'darkside' unknowingly?

arrogance
noun
overbearing pride evidenced by a superior manner toward inferiors

do i look down at ppl?
do i see myself as superior?
do i scoff at ppl's weakness?

2007-01-24T19:47:00.000+08:00

pls.
i onli hope now that i stop falling.
i've lost k.
i cant win.

2007-01-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

im trying my best to be guai1 alr
but sumhow
sum way
the tchrs r making my life extra difficult
things r suddenly much more stricter
more difficult
im receiving so much attention
wrong kinda attention
cant u ppl play fair
im nt a robot
i have limits
i do your homework till late night
and you expect me to stay awake and attentive next day in class?
i din do holidae hw
alright i know im wrong
but this is squeezing water out of rock liao lah can
im dying alr
stop pls
stop.

and someone said i din even deserve staff sergeant rank....

2007-01-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

friday.

this was wat happened on friday, 19/1/07

guys were separated frm gals
during morning assem.

spot check

there was a line of ppl caught for attire no good
guys lah
_ went up there and gave all of them a warning letter
tat will follow them till university
a black mark on their profile

this includes sec 1s
their first spot check in this school
they dunno anyth
they oso tio warning letter

attire oso will tio warning letter?

worst
onli guys tio
gals nvr tio
v fair hor _
you sexist?
or you tyrannical?
or you seriously seriously demented and insane?
first you do tat thing to me
now this

knnbccbljmf

2007-01-13T20:01:00.000+08:00

hey ppl.
its okay man im not out to kill anyone
nor am i contemplating the idea of taking a jump off the 20th storey.

thx for support and everyth
dun anyone do anyth stupid cos of this
nt worth it

they always win.

and the 6 guys with me u know who u are
dont. give. yourself. up.
period.

lets all jus pia o lvl and
'leave this god-forsaken place'
- Ren Zhi

2007-01-12T21:50:00.000+08:00

sch sucks.
everything downslope off cliff watever.
tis is wat happened to me the last few days

saturday was cip
i slacked off cip
like many others
din wan to do cip in the first place.
cld have nt gone had i not been under impression it was compulsory
cld have avoided all this trouble
but tat wasnt the case
i got myself into this shit

amazingly unlucky
i was caught for slacking off cip
my bag was the only one checked by the teacher
light, no money
so i told da tchr i went to slack
but to those who know it was all a cover up
tot it was over
tot it was JUS A CIP incident...

nahh
monday came.
tcl got me to write a reflection
angry. they had to pursue the matter like tat.
wrote the letter
k i admit im wrong here. i exploded in tat letter
shoot the school shoot the organisation of the cip
unhappy larh can
unhappy tat ncc is taken for granted to do Sk
unhappy the school made us do work again on saturday, the cip(tot was compulsory mah)
unhappy im made to work for an organisation i have nvr heard of or seen or know their purpose.
unhappy i have to go ask for donations, its nt nice work.
din mind not having cip hours, rly.
tot the letter went to tcl onli.

i was wrong
ms EK announced on wednesday tat i was unremorseful abt the cip thing
tat i kept resisting and saying why me why me.
like im some villain.
wrong k
WRONG.
i knew i was wrong
and it IS true so many others slacked off
target me onli cos im from 4a or have rings..
fk lah right.
she totally ruined my name.
suppose everyone thinks im evil or wat

thursday came.
ms ek ordered me to her office
i went and she talked to me for 2 hrs
followed by chua 30 min
then look 1 hr.
all i learnt from the talks: adults take teen's anger rants too seriously
they over infer. like seriously.
anth thing i learnt: school is unforgiving and unforgetting
why?

cos

They stripped my blue rings for a month
reason given by look: cip, homework nvr do last year, pants wear low, pon sc investiture last yr
know wats fked up here?
cip everyone oso slack
homework was last yr...
pants............ -.-
sc invest i din pon. i was sick. but is no need see doc de sick jus sleep can le
sumore next day got bio test lah they wan me die ah
so i went home to heal
came back school din wan tell look i was sick as she din seem likely to accept the reason w/o mc.
so i decided to do punishment and get it over with
walao. i decide to forgive and forget
the school decides to do the opposite

however
contradicting things happen
mr ong stripped my msg opportunity
and my outstanding cadet nomination form
reason: i had character flaws; too proud of ncc (infered from the letter)
is tat really a character flaw?
cos kinda like most ncc ppl who have passion think the way i do
ncc is bigger than the school.
like. ncc is 105 yrs old
hq is so mucher greater
ncc has achieved so much more
and this pride has made me defend ncc too furiously frm the sch
we rly nt happy to do so much SK lah.
think i have finally got it across to the minds of the tchrs
at the expense of my blue rings.
haha he said this 50th anniversary was last time ncc was to do Sk solo. will take turns wif other ccas.

final blow? wat i wrote in the letter wasn't even true as it was a cover up.
i jus lied with anger.

they make it as though i am irresponsible, selfish, and such.
i am not affected as i know myself better than they know me
i am not wat they say i am.
i will remain strong.
i have my own values which i strongly believe in

ms ek said i was nt a good leader
wrong
i jus dun lead for the school.

admitted
i am hotheaded.

i am totally misunderstood here and wrongly accused. i feel tyrannised.

2007-01-06T17:59:00.000+08:00

SCH REOPEN

day 1
SICK. gastric FLU
tio caught by CHUA for sleeping in gallery
then EK pulled me up in front of everyone in LT to show my 'acceptable hairstyle'
tio SUANED like siao
paiseh larh can.
stayed back in school to do poster for orientation day NCC
went home LATE
slept LATE
ncc rocks.

day 2
LESSONS! can kill
so tired.
fell asleep during english
sorry mrs kan
almost died during math
but din sleep chng will kill
ran off to ncc room to TALK COCK wif ncc guys
cos MDM ong was late for lesson
kena CAUGHT by her while gg back to class
she pulled me by my EAR back to class LOL.
argh. suayness.
stayed back in school to do poster again
finished it and it started to RAIN.
HEAVY.
went and drenched myself and went crazy high cos no one was there
except for yanwen
tink he was traumatised i was so crazy
lols
ncc ppl r liddat
went home LATE again
slept LATE

day 3
ORIENTATION!
we OWN!
NCC OWNS
damn fun
damn high
girls had 28 ppl write names larh like O.O!!
guys had less
=(
hahahahahahaa
ncc was so cool
so outstanding
we cheer v nice
we drill nice
we attract attn nice
i like ncc song
v cool
hahahha
did alot of SK!
went home TIRED
slept LATE

day 4
TODAY!!!
kns CIP
lol but i went to play LAN!!
YEAH
hahahahahahhaa
haha
but tio caught by teacher
HOW SUAY CAN I GET?!
nvm.
suay
then here i am blogging lor

2007-01-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

wtf.
sch reopens tml larh
SIAN.
i haven touched much of my hw
im gg to die

suay larh
today wan go mass copy one
in the end fall sick
pick up pen oso like no strength
end up lying on sofa
onli copied one math
borrowed hw wan go home copy
still SICK larh
cant pick up pen again
din do anything again

i dowan go back school
i dowan b sec 4
o lvl larh WTH
if im not sick i woulda gone to the open carpark and screamed my lungs out
oookay i dun scream
i shout.
tml hav to wear uniform agn
k la kinda miss wearing tat ting
and getting caught for low pants

and they put ncc's booth outside d and t
fuck them
outside d and t can see lor
is not ulu lor
pull ppl v easy lor
ccb then not enough sia
after ug camp fire have to do area cleaning ourselves
how honorable a job
ncc sucha good cca u make us do tat
nice one larh
we do saikang for UCC liao
now tis
nice one larh
NICE ONE LARH
NICE ONE LARH

2006-12-29T13:08:00.000+08:00

shit
school is restarting like wtf
im gg to be like sec 4 in a few days
tmd.

i dun like gg to sch sia
esp in my class lar stress lar
all the guai guai ppl study study then marks high high.
dun like sia
no joking ard no gg crazy no talking cock
=(

wanted to blog but internet down past few days
dunno wat shit taiwan earthquake
din know internet cables were underground LOL.
yah lar now forget wat i wan to blog about liao
nvm i tink of things then i slowly blog.
here goes

homework.
im screwed
nth much more to say
i haven even done till the 20 percent mark k
i win alr
gg to get screwed by all the teachers when i go back school
mrs kan ask me do essay competition
i wrote the prologue and left it at there
no heart to continue
and waddehell theres onli like 6 days left for me to live
i cant get down to doing hw lar can
its like holiday mood 24/7 for me lols
i see hw i wna throw in fire and burn.
argh
anyone wanna do mass copy session?

ncc.
hey ppl like time to get more fierce can?
dun win respect by being nice
its not right
its not wat specs are supposed to do
specs are supposed to be hated
hated and then respected
look at the big picture not just at the amount of respect you get yourself.
specs r supposed to make each other look good
not diss each other infront of cadets to boost own ego
yea?
we r so not fierce cadets r not discipline anymore lar
look at it yourself
you like meh
they joke ard during drills and c and c
you like ar
your unit liddat
you like then i nth to sae
wah spent so much time last act drawing stupid ali in no.4
so difficult to draw lar
draw halfway then couldn't resist go take platoon wif my shoes off lol
rain sux

life.
nt so gd
wan go out.
you know wat i mean.

nth to blog one lar
eh yujun u nth to do ar
spam wat spamspamspam
spend your time more wisely la
my tagboard so beautiful one

home.
fked up
cant use phone and msn
as usual
cant stay up w/o dad trying to slaughter me
like wats his prob
HOLIDAY LA CAN
you know wats holiday?
you ever experienced holiday?
go check dictionary
fk la
wats wrong wif MSN ?
huh u tink is chatline right
dunno dun anyhow say
it isnt mirc
i wont get online friends
i wont go out and become a paikia
fuck you you dunno never use before who are you to lecture me on its being bad?
cos its not bad
phone. who doesnt use phone?
you use phone all the time
why cant i call after 1000?
you tink teens nowadays all fukcing nerds and guaikia like you were lasttime issit?
you tink they all sleep after 1000?
ccb wake up your idea la dad
1000 is like early as morning.
wan talk to fren oso cannot
hp bill oso i ownself foot
fuck you im sick and tired
im always broke
now i have to foot my own bill
ccb. i owe ppl alot of money
you making me owe ppl alot of money
and you dun give me enough money AT ALL
excepy when its necessary.
i dun get money to enjoy myself
to have fun
you tink im a robot i work work study study onli issit
nabei.
dun blame me if i run away from home
life outside might be better.
rahhhhh.

2006-12-17T19:01:00.000+08:00

im back!
siao i miss everything man
argh dun like go back msia
eat until fat onli

hmmm i sense smths happened to ncc while i was gone
will sumbody kindly tell me cos i dunno hu to ask

i cutted my hair
hahahhhaa
veh short
damn short
its called regrowing everything
cos camp pinnacle happened to destroy it
bloody hell im not gg back to sispec anymore
force ppl cut hair one
then the barber there ar
knn noob barber sia
say DUN SLOPE DUN SLOPE
in the end sloped
wtf!
he onli know one hairstyle sia
no wonder haircut $4
then all the ppl from scorpio company tat was supposed to cut hair were luffing at me
i turned to them
"eh you all gg through same fate as me dun luff"
and they shutted up

lol learn many things frm camp pin
one of which is OUR unit is damned disorganised
gotta make some changes soon
yar and im thinking if we shd change csm to usm and all tat or not
hmm
hm

eh anymore activities or not ar tis holiday
pui shit hu am i asking
im the asm here

2006-12-02T18:59:00.000+08:00

charlie chalet ended on wednesday
for some is damn boring
for me its okay lar quite fun la
haha yeah we joked around quite alot and laughed alot
first day we were caught in the lousy rain
everyone tio wetted by the time we reach the chalet wtf
the chalet damn small but we had to make do
we settled down and listened to music for a while doing nth
many ppl wanted to whack xhui for singing
he sings beautifully, wat can i sae LOL
den the girls went off sumwhr to buy sumthing
guys were left behind to set fire for bbq
we set the fire quite power okayy
cos is i do one ma lols
yar den after tat we cooked abit
totally screw up the cooking part hahahh chao tah one everything LOL
cos is i cook one ma
im destructive lol
night came
out of nowhere appeared 6 bikes or was it 8? forgot
sumone must haf gone and rented them lol
yeah so i spent most half of the night night cycling
was damn fun
onli xhui can match my speed lol
nt bad ar lan jiao bin
yea then went back bathed and play daidee for quite long
and den i went out till morning.
no slp 24 hrs
morning went to fetch ks tat asshole kana grounded wtf give ncc activity as excuse to come.
den guys went to play lan
ks and kenneth stay behind to play mahjong
AUNTY LAR pls LOL
oops shdnt sae tat at night ended up learning mahjong
wat can i sae its damn aunty
so apparently im an aunty in training
dun worry i quitted b4 i cld be fully converted
yar den dunno when it happened sumone( i tink is me) imitated bing yang's "FORK YOUUU"
and end up everyone keep repeating
damn funny lar can
and i realised xhui was called lan jiao bin
cool name
means cock-face, for those hu dunno
yar lan jiao bin and the many actions tat accompany tat name
k nvm censored
oh yar my parents came spot check me on second night
WTF.
paiseh larh WTF
wtf
i had to rip off my skull shirt(yes my skull shirt wat u wan) and swap wif janson
den go outside quickly talk to them and shoo them away
paiseh
walao they come from boon lay to pasir ris jus to spot check me!
wat can i sae:
WTF LAH
totally du diao
-.-
third day rather uneventful
we went home

yeah my camp pin on monday
sian haf to split platoon
i hate tat
well
byebye agn for 5 days

2006-11-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

tml is charlie chalet.
guys haf to go shopping tml
so meeting time is 10am je mrt control
repeat: charlie chalet is 27-29
dun go wrong date
will slap u personally.

im broke
i hate being broke.

2006-11-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

todayy went to play lan wif charlie guys.
LOL.
i screwed up my hero big time
zzz
den sum funny things happened
bingyang(tiny) chased me(a half lifed lich) around the trees five rounds until he gave up and ran away LOL
im so pro at tis type of crap
i used a chicken
gave it a soul booster, dagon and BOT
made it follow xw all over the map
he tried to kill it but failed miserably LOL
i ksed 2 creeps from him
shiok
then i kouped xhui's power threads and made him wail LOL
i love tat chicken
it can teleport and blast creeps into oblivion wif tat dagon
and bing yang tried to kill it and failed horribly
he was a tiny and the chicken had 425 hp
tsk.
i dunno why ppl play dota so competitively larh
playing tis type of crap is so much fun lol
anyhow play lar
dun kaopei when kana pawned larh
more fun larh
dun becos of a stupid game then start hating ppl larh
wth
conclusion dota sux
k i dunno wat i talking

anyway
charlie chalet is on MONDAY ppls
27-29
not 28-30
so dun cock up and go wrong date
i'll slap u personally

2006-11-22T19:21:00.000+08:00

hey dun kick up a fuss over suanning me
u wan to suan me den suan me larh
no big deal
the most i break ur neck in a fit of anger onli LOL
but other than tat i dun care
stop arguing abt it ppl

jus came back from church camp
tired like @#$%
wake up early morning go shooting
can die one larh
my camp there the place aloha changi so dam ulu
i spent 10 mins talking to the stupid taxi booking guy
explaining where i was
walaos

shooting
lols
tired lah dun expect me tell long story
guys shot 17 17 18 14
girls ... forgot
but guys got like 7th in west dist?
girls got 2nd
so lao kui rites
nvm dun wan waste time explaining
at firs tot we got 4th
sir ask us stay back
den wait long long
sumone shot better than us
we got kicked out
buay song go home
their system so sucks man
anw tis is last time i holding a god damned live rifle liao
cool

xhui is a pangsehing idiot
or pangsai-ing idiot?
lol

sooo tired
damned
still wearing no.4
k time to
get
changed
and...
zzzzz

2006-11-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

wtf lah u all
i no hp u all suan
i got hp u all suan
my everything oso kana suan
i live to get suanned?
fine.
mayb im jus too nice?
i dun retaliate?
i b nice tis is wat i get?
trying to send me a msg?
doesnt pay to b nice mayb?
nvm.

seh today had another activity
7 ppl came
waddehell
win lah
den halfway rendy lee came over and caught me
mr csm was doing hw in ncc room and got away wif it
r.lee: 'today got activity why r we nt informmed?'
me :
r.lee: 'u naughty ah u'
and he punches the hollow of my shoulder
he did tat the other day on the day of my nz interview
dno why he likes to do tat
mayb he wants to punch away my hollow of my shoulder so i cant shoot on 22-23 LOL
kk tat was crap
heng is not mr ong lei
or else i'll hav died long time ago liaoo
i tink nxt time i better tell aloy
budden onli 7 ppl come wats the pt
haish

part c guys went to play lan at queensway today
i din bring money
sat thr wif them for 4 hours
lol.
the onli time i played was whn bingyang ask me to take over
then xhui tot BY was still playing
xhui: 'OI i see the FARMER!'
me: 'knn call me farmer'
and i chased and killed him
me: 'tats for calling me a farmer'
then he found out it was me playing
LOL
i suck at dota now
so long nvr play plus lose interest
sumone pls gif me a game to fall in love wif agn pls

aaaand i forgot to tell the guys abt snrs chalet
screwed we seriously r
walaos
we haf to plan seniors chalet leh!
everybody pay $20 nxt act pls
nxt act is nxt friday btw
yah so EXP cos we haf to foot for snrs
or sumone can b ncie enuff to go ask frm dem
den alan will hopefully book chalet
sumwhr in DEC
kaoz
expensive larh
but bobian lah guys
AND we haf to do SHOPPING for OUR part C chalet
nid $$ too
everybody get ready to b utterly humiliated as we stoop ard shopping centres carrying big plastic bags.
LOL

2006-11-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

riiight.
i sumhow managed to screw up my 24 hr clock
i tot 10pm was 2000hrs
WTF
8pm is 2000hrs, btw, for the benefit of those who cant read 24hr clocks.
to tink im the timer.
frm ncc.
yeah and tats y i was late tis morning mr csm
din come at 700hrs did i?
overslept.
then woke up
and tot 'eh why 425hrs the sky so bright one arh?'
walk outside look at hse clock
'WTF'
'shit'
'$!@#$@"

anw i had ncc activity today
oops i meant 'training'.
yeah it rawked
felt like i did smth to push ncc back on track
no more slacking ard
first HIONG pt in like....6 months?
lols
first time the juniors were so shag and dirty at the end of it all in a looong time.
although i still saw them playing soccer aft act.
hm. k lor means pt nt hiong enuff
taken into consideration ppl.
i pumped over 250 i tink
means ard 100 plus for juniors
cool. though still quite slack
budden they dying liao cannot push so much
hahahh. i broke the stupid restriction.
feels good to haf a PROPER ncc activity
good for the cadets too.
feels good to haf finally pushed them to their limit
like we were pushed to our limit every act.
yeah and first time so many part Cs went jec tgtr in a long time.
conclusion.
we nid more of these unofficial acts.
restrictions suck.
lol still got tis coming friday
yeah.

2006-11-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

i went pulau ubin todayy!
to cycle
i like cycling
i like cycling FAST.
i like the feeling of the wind tearing at my face, blowing my at my hair
i like whooshing down steep slopes and zipping past slow moving ppl
but i hate ppl hu cycle bikes slowly
block my way onli
cannot make use of slope fully
i like biking too
oops im nt of age
but i've rided a motorbike b4
hahah.
i tink i'll grow up to b sum speed biker or smth
no wonder i get so many injuries frm falling down my bike
hahah but i din fall down today
coolness.
mayb i'll get a licsence at 16
den i'll ride a motorbike to my JC
and everywhr else
k im tinking too much
whn den can get liscence in sg arh??
i wanna ride.

2006-11-11T19:48:00.000+08:00

NCC UNOFFICIAL TRAINING NXT WEEK
NOT COMPULSORY
tuesday 730 fall in
friday 730 fall in
Attire : Pt kit and no.4
no parental consent required
entirely voluntary

Acsm
Rv Ncc
Lim Zhi Ler

2006-11-11T18:32:00.000+08:00

yeah
nz interview over.
gd.
i tink i screwed it.
no gd.

im constantly bored.
sian.

my dad's a big shouter kpkb nonstop
keep saying my attitude gt problem
saying i dun listen to him
but hu wans to listen to him
dun let me use msn
dun let me talk on phone after 10pm
hav to pay for hp myself
cant use com after until 12pm? wtf.
whr am i living?
prison ah.
no wonder i love to go out so much
dun blame me if i one day i dun go home dad.

holidays gt hw ahh
sian leh
i forgot for a moment thr tat thr was hw
nvm dec last 2 weeks den do.
HECK.

sht sht.
eh Part D chalet we haf to plan
guys. quick. nid help.
die liao.

2006-11-10T19:48:00.000+08:00

argh.
tmr got NZ interview.
means i hav to prepare no.4 everything
die liao dunno wat to sae.
sekali i panic tmr.
yah like its gg to happen.
anw for those of u hu dunno
ncc hq interviews r liddat:
1. u wait outside and overhear the tua tao discussing abt impt stuff
2. u see and size up ur..ahem...fellow interviewees
3. den u go inside the conference room shaking all over
4. sit in tat comfy chair. still shaking.
5. look at ur interviewers and get big shock as u see 8 big ranking ppl hu look like they can gif hell.
6. u get bombarded wif qns tat r rly stupid and do not require answering
7. but u still answer anyway
8. and most answers r hypocritic or smth.
9. u hear other ppl frm other schs ranting on and on and on
10. and on and on.
11. u open ur mouth and lots of crap which u hadn't plan on saeing comes out.
12. end of interview.
13. walk out.
14. go home.

whn going home u start tinking
'damned i screwed my interview'
but in the end you'll probably get in or smth
tats how funny the way things work
hahahahh.
anw i tink my interview's gg to get screwed tmr
damned.
as in rly screwed. nt saeing screwed so tat i'll get in.
uhh. nvm.

kaoz now i haf to go prepare uniform
wax collar and everything
i like no.4
makes ppl look gd in it
if he/she noes how to wear it
i tink its the smartest coolest uniform.
if u noe how to wear it.
and the uniform tat requires most work
wax here
sew there
cut here
fold thr
iron here
button here
unbutton thr
hook here
poke thr
yah u get wat i mean
but its a cool uniform
dam cool. heh.
did i mention its fireproof? lol.

today went running wif ks
run frm boon lay to je
sian lah din feel like i exerted myself enuff
after tat go jec
see alot of seniors
we bought a coke large
which disappeared jus liddat in a few moments
din feel like i drank anyth
aft tat we talked abt ncc and our restrictions
and im resolved
to hell wif the restrictions
look out for unofficial activities nxt week ppl=)
hiongness.

2006-11-08T16:49:00.000+08:00

sian.
today go sch in morning pass up consent form to r.lee den go home liao
seh wad a waste of time
firs time i go sch den go home straight
cos sumone wanna watch tv mah rite.
lol. nvm.

my dad said i cld get a hp.
sumhow my reaction wasnt jump wif joy
budden i dun ever jump wif joy anywae
yah so im getting my hp
soon. i hope.
catch is i haf to pay everything myself
including subscription or prepaid
i tink prepaid
means i wunt b eating in sch anymore
cool. can lose weight larh nt bad.
heh.

4.52pm now
being bored out of my wits
parents wan me to read
like a fuck
read